Hey how are u doing? You have been on my mind and thought I would see if everything is going OK? I read most of the post and really feel a closeness to some of the people here and we need to check up on one another. Thats why God has brought us here. To help and ((((hold)))) one another. So here is a ((((((BIG HUG))))) felt like you might have needed one today. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Thanks Sunny,

I am doing ok, hanging in there, have been real quiet at home for the last couple of days. I have never done Plan A from day one, so I am gonna try that now, just wish I had known about it in July 2002. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

My constant pushing, blowing up & making demands is not working, it took me coming here to figure that out. H must want to be w/ me or he wouldn't have come home right? So I will try to wait out the "fog".

It helps so much to have this place to go to, I feel so alone these days, my friends are all but sick of me talking about this, they would never tell me that though, & my family doesn't want to hear it at all, they are waiting for me to wake up, & get a D.

Anyway I am glad to know someone truly cares even though we will never meet. You will never know how much you uplifted my day! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Keep the faith ! And I know how family can be and friends, most of mine know and talk to her, so there are a very select few I can talk to also. I just had you on my mind and remember you can get more w/ sugar than vinagar. I (knock on wood) haven't blown up yet at H. I try to remain calm and if I'm angry just try to breathe and not talk about it til the next day or so. Sometimes when you think about it, and make some kind of sense out of it, you can talk about it better. I wish you luck and may God put his hand on your heart. I've got you in my prayers and if you need to vent, send me your email and I will send you mine.

Sunny,

It is so funny how God works, I was thinking today that maybe I wouldn't post anymore here, my lastest post hadn't got much response, I thought maybe no one knows what to say to me, guess I was trying to have a pity party today. I am certainly too much of a mess to advise anyone, but I have tried to at least share my experiences & hope that they might help somebody. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

I cried when I saw your post to me, then came home & caught some of Oprah's show today, "How I found out my husband was cheating", cried through that too. I live in upstate NY & it is snowing pretty bad here today after seeing dry ground for a few weeks, it is depressing me too. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

I just ordered SAA, better late than never huh?? It can't hurt, just hope it is not too late...

My email is brenda4everblessed@yahoo.com

Thanks again for thinking of me.