About the feelings re:emotional abuse...

BTDT, and I'm so in tune with your feelings.

That moment when you are so certain you would do virtually anything to see a glimpse of that man you fell in love with...
Telling yourself you'll give him "just one" more chance, secretly hoping that will be the time you'll see a glimpse of that man...
Asking yourself how he could blame you for your feelings! But quietly telling yourself that you must have done something...
Quietly feeling that you're going nuts.
Just NEVER being ready to "give up" on him, even when it means admitting you're wrong when you KNOW you weren't, or asking forgivness for something HE perceives as wrong, though others don't.
And that love.
That love that you are SO CERTAIN will come back to you if you DO enough, TRY enough, BE enough...

Just wanted to let the two of you, as well as others suffering the same, know that I feel your pain SO deeply, and it is as fresh to me as if I were in your very shoes today.

The exact situations vary, and don't really matter, but "they" take pieces of us every day.

Hi MeNtheBoyz,

Thank so much for understanding my pain. I do love him so much and Know that he is hiding the real him underneith all his guilt and pain. I know that he is hurting deeply as well as me. I keep hopeing that he will heal and show me his true feelings and vulnerbilities. He covers those up by lashing out at me. I catch glimpses of him once in a while. Those moments are prescious. Also it is like with all the memories and all the special moments. The money you have invested together you hate to lose. You hate to start over and you hate to see him abandon you for somebody else. Everytime I think of leaveing I think of him being with somebody else and feel so thrown away.