Well today is my anniversary and I never thought we'd see another one...

Never thought we would be in a new house together and still have love and our kids secure and safe again and happy.

After all of this.

And me getting a new house w/o husband.. and almost accepting dates and being single... ready to completely turn that corner!

And all the tears, pain, sorrow, frustration and lost hope..

At times like we have been thru, things feel so doomed.. like there is no hope, like you are never going to be happy again ... or "normal"..

Sometimes I felt I was withering away never to be young and fun again..and feel sexy and beautiful.. or even like part of society!

And then there you go again...you turn a corner in life again...because life keeps moving and you mold into anew again.. and you can barely remember how it was before...

There is AWLAYS new hope for positive change and new adventures and love and dreams... I could go on and on..

But today I am just letting you all know that the "nevers" turn into being, and the "never thoughts" happen every day.

I am happy again and productive with and without H.. and it took some time and things are still uncertain at times, but I have hurdled over the depression, the lost hope and boy it is so much better on this side. I look back and cannot believe how much life I was not living for a long time. I have heard LynnG say "this is not a dress rehersal for your life- this is it!" How very true... Wasted years and tears and time over things I could not control. I needed only to seek God in me getting control and taking care of ME.. my life is so precious to God and we need to LOVE US as He does.

All of us here have been thur war...and are here living to tell about it. All of us here have hope for brighter existences so long as we are breathing!! Seize that life God gave you.

I am trying and it is working because I am in control of ME. H's followed because he saw ME loving ME and he wanted to be a part of that.. and if he didn't I knew I would be okay - God tells all of that and we do not want to remember it!!

Just my thoughts today because I am so thankful to make it to a day that I never thought I would make w/ my hone and my children. Thankful that I weathered the storm and am getting stronger with and w/o H !

Congrats!--SO proud of you--wish I was where you are but hoping to catch up with you soon.

Thanks for the inspiration.

G123,

Thanks for a wonderful point that you made today. You are so right in that we need to focus on being grateful for what God has done for us, and the fact that we have to get control of ourselves and put God first in all we do. ( sorry for the run on)

I am doing just that myself, and I found that the time I used trying to fix it myself and asking everyone their opinions, thoughts I should have been spending time in deep prayer. God is the only one that can see me through this anyway. he is the only one that has the power to change my H and our family. I need to get in close proximity with him in order to feel his power and strength to go on. I know that tomorrow is not promised therefore, we must spend each day as if it were our last.

I don't want my last day to be sitting pining over my H when he is living each day to the fullest. I want God to deal with him and I want to wake up each morning knowing that I am blessed to be here and to have my beautiful children with me. I want to be able to praise him at all times. By being obedient to his word then our blessings will overflow. More abundantly - do you hear me MORE ABUNDANTLY!!

God is a good GOD however we must be faithful to him and trust and believe that he will do it for you. " ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE "!

So continue to hold him in high esteem making him the head of your life and the rest will follow!

Thanks for reminding me of that!

God Bless - and Happy Anniversary


JT

Here...here!! I loved your post.
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J2- yes yes! I hope so much for you in your new stage of life- with or without H!!!

Yes Ent, Amen to J2's lovely post!!

Albany, same goes for you... you are gaining strength, and don't look back...

Now I am going to have a glass of champaige w/ the man I love. He is sooo lucky, isn't he??? LOL!

yes He IS !!!!


JT

Have fun - Don't do anything I wouldn't do !!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> (just kidding - ENJOY!)

Might I also add that I am also happy and thankful today because yesterday I had surgery on both of my breasts to remove tumors and today the doc called and reported that they were confirmed to be benying (sp?) fibroid tumors. Just another reason to remember that not everyone is so fortunate. When you have a health scare you also are reminded what is most important- the health of yourself and your children, etc...

And I am off the rest of the week enjoying my "meds" and being waited on by H!

CONGRATULATIONS are definately inorder----in more than one way. For yoru marriage & yoru health.

Girlfriend---email me chick! I responded & updated your post to me---but I don't think you read it! tsk tsk! LOL


I hope you enjoyed (or are STILL enjoying) MORE than just a glass of champagne w/ hubby!

& when are you gonna join SxF group & post some pics?

Giov,

Congradulations <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> You give me hope

THANKS GIRLSSSSSSSSSS

How do I post pics on SBF-I am SO lost on the whole concept.. help kt I wanna come on there!

I am still up, and just too shy to say why... hint hint...

Congrads J123! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> Enjoy each other and it feels good to get to the point of letting God take care of all of it! The post was great thanks
<img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" /> Sunny D

G123,

Happy Happy Anniversary & thank God he is restoring your health!!!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

It is so great to hear some happy endings can come out of this mess. We sometimes have to go thru hell in the "middle" to get to that ending, but God is in control & never makes a mistake. If we seek to do HIS will we can't lose.

Again, congrats on your very special day!