{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Gina}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
I'm just so sorry!!!!! <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

I feel you have waited long enough for your car,please call the police asap. You derserve to bettter than this.

Genia,

I love you girl and you already know what I am going to say. So I won't say it - you just do it!

Love Ya,

JT

<small>[ November 29, 2004, 11:15 AM: Message edited by: JT2 ]</small>

NONONONONONONONONONOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Don't you dare quit posting. Don't you dare! I still care about you...........you said the exact wrong words at the exact wrong time. Do not beat yourself up for it. Ever. Ever. Ever.

If I can forgive my fool (sometimes) of a husband, I can forgive anything...and your indescretion was just words. WORDS! (snort)

It is the time to put the words behind us.

(((((((((((((GENIA))))))))))))))))))

- Kimmy

Hi Kimmy,

Thanks. I feel better. I am at a very low point right now. I was at a very low point when I wrote the wrong words. I am having trouble focusing. I do not know your situation now because I have not read up on you for a while but I care about everybody who goes through this pain that we all don't deserve and never thought we would go through.

Everybody,

Thanks for the love. I needed it. The OW called me back and told me stuff that hurt. She said my husband told me he was with a new woman so I would stay out of his business. She said he asked her to marry him. I began by telling her how I had tried to make it work. How he told me he was not doing anything with her, that the contact was all about the baby. I told her that she came in between our relationship and all I wanted was to accept her baby and work things out with my husband. She gave the typical OW response that she did not want me around her baby. I said, I could love your baby. She said that she just did not want me near her baby, that she would not let him bring her baby to our house. I told her that I had SF with my husband last week. I am not sure why, but I still loved him and beleived him when he said he was not with anybody yet. I feel guilty that I was not strong enough to do plan B. I told OW about having SF with my husband and she could not beleive it. She said she was gonna confront him. I said he will lie. She said I will know if he is lying. I think to myself, he looks me dead in the eyes and lies. I wish I could have her gift, I would not have went through all the pain. I asked her how did she think he loved her so much if he cheated on her with me. She said she could not beleive it and she could tell by the way he looked at her that he loved her. She said if he came to my house again, she would beat him and me. And if she had to go back to jail she did not care. I said to her the last woman that tried that landed in the hospital. She said she did not care. I think I planted some seeds for some serious lovebusting on her part. Don't worry my husband will not step foot in my house again. Anyhow, I do not see them lasting. I ended with Oh well, he made his bed he must lie in it. She had to rub it in by saying,
" And what a lovely bed it is"
I was obsessing over this since it opened old wounds but I feel better after venting with you all. I know I did things all wrong, I probably should not have called her but somehow I feel better and worse at the same time. I know I should not have had SF with him but he just showed up at my house and my door was unlocked and he just walked in. I could not resist him. I felt bad afterwards but what could I do then. But at least now, I will keep my doors locked. I will change my alarm code. I wonder if OW is a threat to me now. Husband did settle with me for the car, but he still has some things to pick up. I will call his family and ask them to pick those things up. I am glad it is almost over, but I feel so used now and it hurts. I will be OK. The worst is over, I hope.

Funny thing. Husband came to my kids school to catch me. He asked me to meet him in a parking lot. After settling an agreement concerning the car, He asked if he could come to my house and do some work for me for some money. I told him I did not want him in my house anymore. He said so I am just a peice of garbage to you. I said, no but you treated me like I was, when you left me for another woman.

Thanks for listening.

oh Genia,

I am so sorry that he keeps hurting you the way he does and as long as you keep talking to him he will continue to do just that. Pray that everything goes well and move forward. I think you need to distance yourself from him though in order to keep your sanity.

He knows how to push your buttons and he is going to do it. I had to learn the hard way never talk to the OW it accomplishes nothing but grief. Plus what do you really think she is going to tell you that your don't already know. You do not need the goury details, he was there and that's it.

I gotta go so I'll talk to you later and HEY STOP DISAPPEARING ON US!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> You keep posting that is the only way we can communicate with you. we need each other - don't we!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />


Love ya JT

Hi JT,

Thanks JT. I had started obsessing over this again. I called the crisis line and asked how to stop obsessing over this pain. She said when you get stuck, take deep breaths. Then say the opposite to yourself what you are thinking of, such as I deserve to be treated good. I am loved. I thought that was very good advise. She said my husband is still taking up space in me emotionally. She said to light candles in my house as to cleanse my house of his presence. And to write my feelings on paper, and then burn it. Sort of as rituals to cleanse myself from him and all the pain he brought me. I just wanted to share this in case it helps somebody. It helped me the part about positive thoughts. Also I think prayer helps.

Genia