Twas the night before Christmas
and all through the house
I could hear leaky & dripping faucets
that hadn't been fixed by the louse!

Exhausted, my head hit the pillow w/ a sigh
Trying to push away the questions of why
Closing my eyes in disgust & fright
I knew this would be just another sleepless night

The children were nestled
all snug in their beds
hopefully the nightmares
would not play through thier heads

Would the kids like their gifts?
Will this Christmas be ok
knowing the truth that existed
w/ their daddy away.

Then all of a sudden
I heard a voice outta nowhere
say, Listen my child
I really do care.

I knew this would happen
all this would transpire
I knew it would hurt
when you went through the fire

I knew I could count on you
to be there
your sense of justice
would find it unfair

These two are lost
they can't even see
how far they are
& how much they need me

It will not be easy
you may not understand
But these things had to happen
It was all in the plan

You are not alone
I've heard your cry
I saw the pain in your heart
as you realized each lie

But Lord, I questioned
how could this be
this is just too much
to ask of me

I don't want to be the one
I just want my old life back
I promise I'll do anything
to get back on track

Anything? he asked
& I saw him grin
then do this for me
...let me in

I'll take that pain
& turn it to joy for you
I cannot tell you how
But know it is true

Give me your hurt
I'll exchange it for wisdom
Give me your anger
for peace from HIS kingdom

Please trust me on this
I know you will make it
even when you feel
like you can no longer take it

Begrudgingly, I aquiesed
& let it all go
And then I could feel
a bright Christmas glow

This holiday might not
be the best
but I'll be darned if I
would fail this test

I awoke w/ a thrill
although bittersweet
I knew we'd be ok
so turn up the heat

the children awoke
filled w/ Christmas wonder
for a few hours we'd forgotten
how we'd been torn asunder

The strength of the Lord
shown in their mother
gave them the security
they could find in no other

Armed w/ the knowledge
that this was all for a reason
I could finally enjoy
this holiday season

That night when I looked into the sky
and saw the brightest star
I knew my Lord was very nearby
and would never again feel so far.


this is dedicated to ALL my sisters by Fire!


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xxx
kt
Hope you ALL have a VERY MERRY Christmas!
(no matter what!)

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your poem is beautiful!!