I was lucky in the regards for the paternity test. We paid for it out of our pocket within 2 weeks of finding out about OC. Even waiting the 3 days for results.....Lord...I thought I was going to throw up the entire time.
Hang in there pumpkins.....

peace
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It's just so hard. D b-day is tomorrow. Test is Saturday. Her party is next sun and then we should get results mon or tues. What a fun party that will be!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Just hard to hang on right now. My feelings are all jumbled. Need H, Hate H, Love H, Hate H, etc....

I really appreciate all of your help and insight. Please pray for me that the test is negative. i need all the help i can get....

Thanks.

if interested, my story is here:


http://www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic;f=35;t=004866


Any input would be appreciated. Thanks again.

hi all.

today is the day that H goes for test. Please pray for me that it is negative. I need all the prayers i can get. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

This is going to be the longest week of my life.

What if it is his? How am i going to deal with the anguish and heartache and pain etc...? I don't want contact with oc. He does, eventually. I love him, but i don't know if i can ever truly forgive him for this. He's not giving me any kind of support. says he has a lot on his mind (i'm not working, tons of bills, etc.) but i need support. where do i get it if not from him? can't afford counselling, no priest, so what do i do?

If only god hears my prayers and oc is not his, then and only then do i feel we might have a chance.

any advice? <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

Thanks

Went with hubby to do the test. After 5 mins he asked me to leave. Said it was HIS problem to deal with. I told him that it was my prob as well, even though he "did the deed", i still have to deal with it. Well, still asked me to leave, told him F u and left. Should have left him stranded at the hospital, but waited anyway.
I am so confused right now. I want my marriage, but i don't want to deal with all this other sh*t too. Why did it happen to me? What did i ever do to deserve this? No matter what problems a couple is having, there is no excuse for going outside, whether or not it was planned.
I just hurt so darn much. My D doesn't know what's going on, so at least i have that much to be thankful for.

Please, please someone pray for me!!!!!!!! <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

Just wanted to let you know that I said a little prayer for you tonight. I know it is hard, hang in there. H says everytime he looks at OC he is reminded of what he did. He says when I am around XOW, it is that much harder. I'm sure that is what was going on w/ your H today. I'm sure seeing you in pain was difficult on him knowing that he is the one that caused it. I know it doesn't make it any easier, but maybe sometimes it helps to have some understanding.

Thank you so much for your prayers. It is very difficult for me. The least little thing sets me off crying. We were watching a movie, there was a wedding and i ran to the bathroom to cry. When will the hurt stop????? When can i expect to feel something more than pain? I know that he is hurting too, but the sitch was caused by him. I don't know what the h*ll i'm doing any more. I am so depressed but knowing that others who don't even know me are willing to pray for me makes it a tiny bit easier to deal with.

Thank you all so much.