I spend most of my time in this section because that's where I get the most response...<P>So here I go with the ??????'s again.<P>I am still suppose to plan A it while H is still here, he leaves at end of the month, <BR> <BR>How in Gods name am I suppose to show Love and admiration to someone who is breaking my heart? (insert tear icon here)<P>I can't act like it's not killing me, he can see the pain in my face. Usually he doesn't even look at me.<P>I don't want to stay in the other room and avoid him, I want to be in the same room with him. <P>I still make his lunch at night, and feed him supper try to make his favorites. Try to handle the temper tantrums my D throws, Which is really hard!! <BR>(She's 16 and Mentally Disabled.) <P>I try to engage him in conversation, but that quickly fissels out.<P>All I really want to do is rage at him.....................................<P>"HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO US!"<P>"DON'T YOU SEE THE PAIN I'M IN?"<P>"I DON'T WANT THIS "<P>OK I think I'm finished throwing my tantrum... No I'm not but I will stop for now.<P> feel some what better, <P>I looked back on my tantrum and noticed it's all "I's" Is that significant?<P>Trying hard not to LB, I think I got thru tonite OK, tape helps, Thanks TNT) <P>Maybe I'm not understanding Plan A, I keep reading and re-reading everything I can on it......... maybe my mind is boggeled like the "Game" <P> <P>------------------<BR>Peg<p>[This message has been edited by Peggy (edited February 17, 2000).]