For those who know my story,my Husband has just gone on another trip which means visiting OW again.It has been 3 weeks since the last trip.He has to make up all these assumed buisiness meetings so he can fit the visit into his busy schedule.This time he is away for 3 days.I know most of the conservative members on this board shall advice me to stay calm and make home a safe environment..etc and no love busting. Well i am a calm and quiet person by nature ,but I am dying inside from the continued pain I receive from this ongoing relationship my H has with the Ow.In the meantime we are trying to attempt a 'Normal front",continuing our everyday lives as usual,going out with friends,watching movies..etc.I am not saying that it is normal 100% as we still have those awful periods of stony silence and there is a lot of uneasiness as well.They get worse the night he tells me he is leaving the next day on his dreaded trips.I just feel my whole life is a countdown to when he leaves or comes back again.<P>I don't mean to sound a pathetic whinger (I am not)It just continues to amaze me how much a loved one can control and influence another's whole exitence.I question whether this is healthy?It seems that a lot of us here are either losing their sanities or are on some medication as a result of pain caused by infidelity.Why do humans have such power over each other?Is this love?All i know is that I am hardly functioning as a result of this affliction and I am begining to get angry at MYSELF for allowing this to happen.<BR>As my H continues to shift between 2 women,unable and unwilling to end his affair I am getting angrier and angrier.
