Well in one week The man I love will walk through my door for a 10 day visit, he has told me (as I have posted) before he will file for divorce when he is here, well no need I will hand him what he wants as soon as he steps in my door Wednesday and he can choose to sign or not but knowing him he will sign the papers.<BR>I was feeling so good about this a week ago but as every day passes and the 15 gets closer I find my self dreaming about him and feeling like a teenager going out on her first date, but I keep telling myself...he wants this, you love him, he says this will make him happy, so I am going to give him his happiness even if it is not with me(which is the hardest thing I have ever done)I will be his friend like he wishes, for the kids being the main reason(we never fought around them and I never will)but my love for him being the second, we started out almost 10 years ago being friends so.....who knows I am going to no have any expectations about our friendship, I jut hope he doesn't come to me talking about anyone else (even as just friends I will love him and couldn't hear it) I hate feeling so unsure about anything especially my life. But I am trying to keep my self together.<BR>I will not be around the computer much when he is here we have a lot of things planned to do with the kids so I wont be home much but I will let everyone know how things are going. But I am sure I will be here at least 4 or 5 times a day till then. <P><BR>Lesa<P><P>------------------<BR>"It took me quite a while to realize that <B>the real deal</B> is to be able to be enough of a person your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you"<BR>----Stevie Ray Vaughan<P>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Lesa,<P>I'm doing the same. Signing the papers tomorrow. H will be served Friday morning. <P>You know my # if you need me ANYTIME. If the lines busy, email me and tell me to get off the net!! (one phone line! LOL)<P>We will be ok!!!!!<P>Love ya,<BR>Mitzi

Lesa,<P>Prayers for you...<P>If this is what you want... in your heart of hearts....<BR>If this is what is best for you and the kids...<P>Be assured...<BR>...then it will be better for you.<P>Lot's of {{{{hugs}}}} and good wishes.<P> <P>Jim

mitzi, my friend I wouldnt know how I am going to get through this with out you and yes I may be makeing a few calls to WV next week, and you know the same if you need me call and if I am on this thing leave me a message and tell me to get my butt off. love you hun and I am here for you too.<P>Jim, I hope you are feeling ALOT better,the divorce is not what I want in any way but I do wnat him to be happy,and If I keep holding off I am afraid my love for him will fade and I love him to much to grow to hate him,so I will give him what he wants and I will go on for me and my children, and I hope and will continue to pray that God will heal my marriage and everyone elses on this forum as well.<BR>my love and prayers are with all of you<P>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"It took me quite a while to realize that <B>the real deal</B> is to be able to be enough of a person your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you"<BR>----Stevie Ray Vaughan<P>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Lesa...sending hugs & good wishes your way...

Lesa,<P>He may divorce you, but that does not mean that you should stop doing plan A. Remember, that you can still continue to be the best wife to him that he can possibly imagine, and I think that you and he can build a new marriage, one that is based on truth and trust.<P>May the Lord Bless You and Keep You.<BR>John

NoTrust,<BR>thank you thats what I needed today for sure.<P>John,<BR>I still plain to plain A as much as I can for us to build a marriage on those things is my fondest dream,but not his right now I will always be here for him and he knows it or at least he says he dose. I have everything he has ever ask for for the past 8 months and I will keep being that way as long as my love holds out...I will be his friend and like I said who knows....I have always heard the best loves start as friends first.<P>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"It took me quite a while to realize that <B>the real deal</B> is to be able to be enough of a person your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you"<BR>----Stevie Ray Vaughan<P>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

My dear friend Lesa,<P><BR>I understand all too well. You are in my prayers and I miss you. I have only been lurking lately but I wish to chat with you soon. <P>------------------<BR>"If you can learn from the mistakes of others, you won't have to make them youself."<P>lady_divine77@yahoo.com