Hello,<P>Just wondered if there were any others out there tonight who can't sleep! <P>I wanted to title this thread "My h baked me a cheesecake" but I feel like I have gone on enough about that! <P>Anyway, I can't sleep because I keep mulling over how his visit went today. I am beginning to think that I am going insane.<P>This is for all the insomniacs out there!<P>Goodnight! Woozy

hi woozy,<P>I thought I was alone here tonight... LOL <P>Did you read my answer to your earlier post?<P>Keo<BR>

Hi Keo,<P>Yep, I read your reply and I replied back! Thanks. I feel a little less alone now! I will regret staying up late when the boys wake up at 7am fighting. LOL!<P>Glad to see I am not alone!<P>Woozy

I went inot "profile" earlier and spent a lot of time carefully writing out the details of "my story". <P>I just went back into "my profile" to copy "my story" and paste it in the thread "How about creating a directory? "<P>my profile was missing again. sigh....<P>now I'll have to take time to write it all out again.... <P>it's so hard to go back over some of those painful memories and write them down.<P>I'm trying to forget that stuff and here I am hashing it over and over to pick out what parts to write and what parts to toss out.<P>can you tell I'm having my own private "pity party" right this minute.... <P>don't worry, I bounce back fast... <P>Keo

HEY!!!!!!!!<P>No pity parties without me..I always bring the blender!!!<P>dylan<P>

let's see....I've got Burt Lancaster in Birdman of Alcatraz on the t.v., two sleeping children on the pull-out sofa, and me, doing stupid things like using every search engine to see what I can find out about the OW...<P>sigh......<P>Dylan

Oh Keo, it is so hard! I am sorry your profile didn't save. Make that a pity party for two by the way! <P>A couple of weeks ago I was trying to document everything that happened from the very beginning of this affair. Everyone tells me I need to document everything. Well, I started working on it and I just plain had to quit. It was too depressing. Sort of like what you are doing with your profile. Not an easy thing to go back over all the rotten details! <P>Hang in there! I keep feeling like I am a fool for getting my hopes up about my h coming around. I think I am suddenly expecting too much! I think I need to take a break from him but I don't want to. I want to write him a letter and tell him how I feel and all that. But, I think that would just push him away. I felt like he didn't want to leave tonight. He told me he had to go but then he stayed for about another 40 minutes. So, the ow probably got home from work before he got back.<P>I still liked what my 7 year old said to him. He saw my h putting on his coat. He got sad and and said, "Are you going home Dad? Well, that place you're staying isn't home." I loved that. My h smiled. I said, "Daddy is home." He smiled again. He was fixing my door knob at the time. Stupid thing keeps falling off. <P>I guess, as I said before, I am afraid that my h feels he is past the point of no return. Meaning that even if he did want to come back, I think he feels to ashamed to. That kills me. I want to tell him he could come back but at the same time, I can't do that. I won't do that. He would probably say no anyway. Not going to put myself through the torment of it all!<P>Hope you get your profile posted! Talk to you later!<P>Woozy

hi dylan,<P>you no sleep either? <P>what's wrong with all us nightowls? <P>reminds me of when the babies had their days and nights mixed up <P>my normal sleep pattern has become 7:30 am to 11:00 am. <P>some day I'm going to go totally nuts from sleep depravation... <P>Keo

Glad to see you here Dylan! Have you found any dirt on the ow yet? I never did drink any of my wine! I did have my Bailey's Irish Cream! Yum! Wish I would have gotten more. I just got one of those tiny sampler bottles!<P>I have done that kind of thing before. Typed the ow's name into a search enging just to see if anything comes up. Are we obsessed or what? Let me know how you dig dirt up on her! <P>Thanks for joining yet another of our pity parties. <P>Woozy

Hello fellow night owls!<BR>I've done housework, I've done laundry, I decided to check in here to see if anyone else was still up. <BR>If you bring the blender to my house, we can all crawl in the hot tub and look at the stars. <BR>B<P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>

hot tub sounds soooo good... it's about 20 degrees outside tonight. <P>Keo

Welcome once again Butterfly,<P>That hot tub sounds really nice! I am freezing right now. That is because I lost all my fat due to the infidelity diet! Well, a portion of it, I lost through dieting and the rest just sort of melted off due to MAJOR STRESS! I have done nothing but sit at this computer for the last 3 hours. Oh my God. Is this what my life has become? Just kidding... sort of.<P>Woozy

OK! I am really going to go to bed now! I have been thinking that for the last hour and a half! Here I go! Goodnight all!<P>I hope my h shows up again tomorrow! I felt it was funny that he felt compelled to tell me he wasn't going to work tomorrow. I did send him an e-mail and told him he could come over if he wanted. Now, let's hope he checks his e-mail. Me, I check it every two minutes! Jeeze, I am just a little bit obsessive these days I guess! Goodnight and sleep tight everyone!<P>Woozy

Good night woozy<P>wish I could loose weight instead of gaining. I set here and snack all night! <P>I think I'm going to go scrub the bathroom or something. Maybe I'll find something so distasteful that it'll make sleep look good. <P>Keo

Keo,<P>You are funny! I cleaned my bathroom before my h came over! I think the real reason my h baked me a cheese cake is because he is worried about how skinny I am getting. You know, the guys are taking notice of me and it is possibly getting to him. When he left, he told me he knew I wouldn't eat the cheese cake so I should take it to work on Monday. I will do that. It is the most excellent cheese cake! I did have another piece tonight! I think I will have more tomorrow. Heck, there might not be any left by Monday. I may have gained 10 pounds by my next weigh in date! OH NOOOO! <P>Didn't I say I was going to bed now????<P>Woozy

Well ladies, it's a balmy 29 degrees here right now.... but once you get in the water, its toasty... at least until you have to get out. <BR>Everyone's welcome. <BR>B<P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>

Butterfly, that was the part I was concerned about... getting out!!!! YIKES! That is when you want to have your electric blankie getting your bed all toasty warm. I want to get a hot tub only have it indoors. I want to add on to the back of my house. All glass addition so you can see the stars but still be inside. Then when I get out of the hot tub, I won't have to freeze!<P>Woozy

Yummy.... Cheesecake.... bring some of that along too! LOL<BR>Good night Woozy, try to get some rest.<BR>Maybe I'll shut this down and go crawl into bed and see if I can get some sleep too...<BR>See ya'll tomorrow (later today )<BR><P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>

woozy are you a magican? it's uncanny the way you can post in your sleep... <P>your making me hungry talking about that cheesecake. how about sending the recipe? I'll gain another 10 lbs... ha ha ha <P>I can invent a whole new fantasy ... "sit on OW" and bounce a couple of times... ha ha <P>oh, maybe the heat from the hot tub will "cook" off the extra weight? ya think? <P>Keo

Woozy,<BR>Actually, it's not too bad. I even have to recover it and then go inside. The water warms you up enough so you don't freeze. I'm really going to like this! I only got it filled and working yesterday.<BR>I can hardly wait until summer! I'll probably be pruney all the time! <BR>B<P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>