I was sitting in church tonight thinking about why I finally feel at peace. Even after this horrible year. It came to me during prayers. It is because I had finally taken the step to turn it all over to God. SInce I have done that, and I keep asking him to help me follow what he wants me to do. I have felt at peace and have the feeling that everything will be okay. Right after Christmas I had a peaceful feeling come over me and like a voice telling me everything will be okay. But I still hadn't completely let go of my doubts. But recently I had decided that I could take any more of the roller coaster ride and that I would give it all to God. I have worked hard at doing this only slip ever so often <P>It was weird after thinking about all of this. Just as I got out of the pew i looked up and saw H's best man at our wedding. He and his wife were there. This wouldn't have been so amazing but I have seen them in years they live in Ark. and were here visiting their family. THink of the odds I think in 27 years we had only run into them at htis church maybe three times. What else was amazing was when they asked about Jim and I told we were separate His wife told me about when they had separated because of an OW. That was in 1987 he was gone for a year living with her then came home and they have been doing great ever since. <P>A lot of support and prayers from them. She told me it can be done. And so did he.<P>Here I was asking for help and he gives me support. This guy was my H's best friend when they were growing up. A thought popped into my head that H can talk to his friend if he needs help. They also told me it was going to be hard but if they could do it so could we.<P>It just kind of blew me away.<P>------------------<BR>di<P>

Di...<P>God is talking to you... personally... <P>You have removed the plank from your eye... and now can see your neighbors' eyes with the clarity of His love... <P>Rejoice and be glad... <P>Jim