I have an appointment to go for a needle biopsy tomorrow in the am(mass on the thyroid ). I'm a little nervous and need to stay really positive that all will turn out ok with the results.<P>H is being of no support when I really need it. Hes been on the computer lately looking up mortality rates for thyroid cancer. This doesn't set to well with me as you can probably guess. <P>I guess I'm on my own with this one and just in need of a little support and some positive thoughts.<P>falsely accused<BR>

FA,<BR> My prayers are with you, but I think there are a large number of thyroid tumors that are benign, so statistics should be on your side! I hope it all turns out well for you. Keep us posted!<BR>Lora

F A<P>Even if you find a positive result with the test, thyroid is one of the easiest to treat. Its hard not to think about the worst, but please spend some time thinking positively also. Ask your Doctor for some encouragement...he can help even if H cannot.<P>My prayers are with you both!!<P>J W

Several things are important to keep in mind in situations like this k? First - whatever they find, they found it early. Second - it's more likely than not that it is benign, it could even be Graves Disease which is completely treatable. Third - you have tremendous support network here, and no matter what happens, you will not have to go through anything alone.<P>Do visualization/meditation therapy. If H can't be supportive and caring, cut him out of your thoughts for now. You need everything good you have to focus positive energies, anything else is just a distraction.<P>Hugs.

Statistics are on your side. I had Grave's disease following the birth of my first child.<P>I had to have my thyroid irradiated and now take synthroid every day. Not a big deal. I just have to remember to take it.<P>It is still scary to have a biopsy and wait for the results. I'll be thinking of you today. Good luck...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.<P>Viki

Thanks for the support and prayers. I have been so positive that this is nothing to worry about but the last two days have been rough. I haven't even told H about the test, I just found out yesterday that I have to go tomorrow. Being he hasn't been to supportive with all this I didn't want to hear anything negative, so I haven't told him. <P>I have been keeping myself extremely busy doing things around here. But problems with my older D are just bringing me down and I started losing all my positive thoughts yesterday. I hate having to deal with everything by myself. I thought that is why I had a H, to help deal with raising the kids and help dealing with things that come up. I guess not being I've been doing it alone for 14 years. <P>Lora, J Willy and Viki, Thank you all, being the statistics are on my side, that should ease my mind. I'm trying really hard to get back all my positive thoughts.<P>SpandauBallet, I didn't know before until the Dr started asking me a bunch of questions, but this has been brewing for about 4-5 years. Piecing all the Q & A together thats what we came up with. The one thing I do know is its not Graves Disease, because that would have showed up in the thyriod blood work. Thanks for the hugs today, I really could use them.<P>tootrusting, Scarey is the word of the day. Just thinking of them sticking a needle in my neck doesn't set well with me. I know I'll come out of this ok, but I am a little nervous. <P>Thank you all again for your replies.<BR>

FA --<P>Try to find humor today. See a funny movie, or rent a favorite that you've always enjoyed!<P>Stay busy. Painting done, yet? Or, are the animals still assisting you? LOL!!! (I saw it... you let a little smile cross your face, if just for a second!)<P>Above all, KNOW THAT YOU'LL BE FINE. It's great that they've been able to move up the appointment. That, too, is a good thing.<P>Seems to me that you had a friend in the neighborhood, plus your mother. Can either one help with D#1? <P>It's perfectly okay to be concerned, but turn that around to give you strength.<P>I know you don't need them cause you're THINKING POSITIVE, but my thoughts and prayers are with you. <P>And remember, CHIN UP!!!!!<P>--keystone

Ok keystone you got me. I smiled and chuckled about the aminals in my paint! LOL No I haven't finished yet! The two late nights of painting the girls rooms really got to me and I am to the point of exhaustion. I took yesterday off from painting to put their rooms back together and then today I had to run and get the referrals(for the tests) and did some errands while I was out(you know the dog needs to eat too! and not just paint!)<P>The thing with D#1 is when I was putting her room back together I found cigarette burn marks on the window sill. I found butts outside the window. 14 years old! What can I say I lost it big time with her. She said she wanted to try it because everyone else does it. Make me think about what else she has tried. Scarey! Especially being I don't like the kids she hangs out with in school and they are allowed off campus for lunch.<P>I have talked to my girlfriend around the corner and her son (who goes to the same school) said he would try and see what he can find out for me. My mom is blind to whatever my D does. She says shes too good of a kid to do these things. So, no help there.<P>Anyway, in a short while my other girlfriend and I are going for the record walk tonight after dinner. Maybe we'll try for 15-20 miles tonight instead of 10. That should make me feel a lot better. <P>I can feel the positive thoughts coming back. Thanks again to all!<P>And thanks keystone!<P>falsely accused

FA --<P>Just got in and logged-on. Glad to see some positive thoughts have headed your way.<P>Let's talk about D#1 later. Nothing is going to happen overnight to change that. Instead, try to focus on your health and the tests.<P>I'm sure the walk helped alot last night. Good work. if anything, it probably helped you get rid of some anxiety so you could get some sleep.<P>Good luck today, and post back when you get a moment.<P>Again, we're all keeping you in our thoughts.<P>CHIN UP!!!<P>--keystone

Well needless to say I will be back at the hospital on Monday at 9am for the test. The Dr in surgical pathology didn't want to do it without an ultrasound being done at the same time becuse she said she didn't feel comfortable that she would hit the right spot, so I have to have it done in radiology. At least I feel she made the right decision, so now its on to waiting again. <P>The walk made a tremendous difference last night. I still didn't sleep to well but at least I had a good walk and de-stressed a little. <P>Oh well, off to get something done around here today. <P>falsely accused

FA --<P>Sorry, but glad to hear. It does sound like the right decision. Better to do it right the first time than just right away.<P>Keep your mind occupied. Walk, run, go to the gym, see a movie, anything right now. Just stay focused on the positive and we'll hold a good thought for Monday morning.<P>The cig thing could be true. Maybe she is just trying it like her friends. Peer pressure can be so very strong. Hopefullly when left to her own devices she'll make the right decision. And, yes, it makes you wonder if there's anything else she's doing/trying.<P>It has always sounded like you had a fairly good relationship with D#1, except for some obstacles lately. Perhaps you can play to the strength of that relationship. Make her a friend, an ally. Perhaps it will reenforce trust and understanding between you, plus help steer her toward being a good role model for D#2.<P>Gotta go. I'll try to check in later if I get a chance.<P>CHIN UP!<P>--keystone

keystone,<P>Just got back from another long walk. Boy did it feel good.<P>Yes I was glad the Dr was at least honest with me in that she didn't want to take any chances. As I was driving there I had thoughts of her missing the spot, so I think she made the right choice. <P>With D I don't think it was the Cig thing that bothered me as much as what she said, about everyone else is doing it. She is a follower and it has always worried me that she will wind up with the wrong crowd just to fit in. It really scares me to think about what she might be doing/trying. <P>The other thing that bothers me is she has asthma. Well shes been weezing for 2 days now and I refuse to give her the inhaler if she is continuing to smoke. <P>Well I LBed last night and I feel bad about it. H decided he better tell me(only because my girlfriend told him he better) that he was planning to have people over for cake for me Sat night. Well I almost lost it all together but I held most of it in and just said "whatever". Now this means in the middle of all my painting and lack of sleep because of stress, I have to clean and get things ready to have people over. I was not thrilled that he had done this. If he was doing it and doing all the prep work for it then it might be different. He tells them to come over and then leaves everything else up to me. So now hes mad at me. <P>Well I have to get things done now. Have a good weekend.<P>falsely accused <BR>

FA --<P>Okay, now... <P>So let's look at the bright side:<P>Your H asserted himself -- on his own no less -- to do something for YOU. Give him credit. He thought himself, and he acted himself. Good for him!<P>On the down side:<P>He didn't think out the plan fully. Perhaps the cake idea would have been a great gesture of support for you, but you've had the house upside down for a week. DUHHHH!<P>Perhaps she should have suggested that the two of you go out for desert and coffee -- alone. No telling how you'd be feeling after the tests (since they were originally scheduled for today). You may not even want to go out. And, what a great opportunity to get away from the paint!<P>Remember -- small steps are better than no steps at all. It may be tough, but how about apologizing to him. Explain that you do appreciate the gesture, but the stress, and the house being upside down just don't make it easy to entertain Saturday.<P>Just MOHO (My Own Humble Opinion).<P>Have a good, restful, PEACEFUL (NO LB'S) weekend. I'll check in later, or on Monday.<P>--keystone<P>