Calling all "lost posters" <P>Okay, I admit I may have skimmed your named somewhere...but I have been thinking of you guys and wondered where you are and how you are doing.<P>Hoping all is "as well as it can be" <P>Happy Happy Friday!<P>Cat

Hey Cat, <P>I'm still here but not posting much. Funny you should ask though, my W caught me completely off gaurd last night and asked if I would take her back. I think the fog is finally starting to lift because of the divorce papers being served and her affair being exposed. The problem is that now I don't know what I want. Its long and involved and frankly I think I'm in shock right now so I told her I would think about it. I hope to post more later today and ask some questions, but right now I'm really busy and there is so much to digest from last night. Keep an eye out for a post later and thanks for asking. Its nice to think someone really cares.<P>Brent<BR>

Hey Cat,<P>Its so nice to be remembered, I was actually wondering about all the people on your list too. And mitzi and woozy too. Hope things are well with you and Sparky. I need to see some good news around here. <P>I am lurking daily. I can't even bring myself to post sometimes. I think just maybe its the chaos of the divorce. All of a sudden, I don't know what I want. There are many days that I just love my new life. But my H has a way of creeping into my head when I least expect it. <P>Thanks so much for caring today, I have been crying for the first time in a month now and I can't explain why? Will post today, hugs and prayers to you and all the friends listed above, those are all my "old" buddies too, funny how in a month, we all slip away?? I haven't had time to meet all the new people here just yet, but my heart goes out to those who have read this and I have not personally introduced my self to. I watch all your stories, I just get depressed at how many new names I see here each day.<P>The see the world thru a new set of eyes. I notice a lot of couples with no ring now. I see couples who look happy and I am no longer jealous, i think, hmm, odds are one of those two have dealt with what I am. I always felt I was the only one til I came here.<P>My prayers go out to every single person on this site , past present and beyond. <P>Dana<BR>

Cat: I have been having trouble signing on. It seems that my password and name has been wiped off. So now, I have to plug in my name. This is a test reply. If it goes through, I will post again.

Cat: I guess it went through. Hooray!! I am still here. Thank you for checking on me. I have had a rough week, but I am hanging in there. I made a mistake last evening. I watched "Wonderland" because it dealt with folks with mental illness. I had a hard time sleeping. One of the TV doctors said something that bothered me and is still bothering me. One of my friends at work told me that I should not have watched it and should have done something productive. I thought it would help me feel better knowing that there are other folks out there like me. This morning while getting ready for work, I was starting to go downhill mentally. My stomach was in knots and still is. I didn't think I could walk out the door without tears, so I forwent the make-up and crawled in bed with my spouse for him to hold me. I didn't care if my clothes wrinkled. I knew he felt my tears on his face because he held me tighter. So I made it to work, no make-up, my hair a mess, but I am here. I didn't mean to be so long winded, but yes I am still here. Thank you so much for caring. How are you doing? How's your health? Have you been doing something nice for yourself?

Hey all!<P>I'm still here too! I haven't been posting much. I reply some but not much new about me. I don't feel like I have much good advice these days. I'm falling back into a slump some days. I wish my divorce could be over sooner but yet I still don't want it at all. Dumb, huh?<P>Dana,<BR>I don't know if you saw it or not but there's a new forum here for divorcing/ divorced. I've been reading there a lot too. It gives me hope that there is a life beyond all of this crap that we're going thru. <P>Take care,<BR>Mitzi<P>P.S. Sobeit, I'm glad you're doing ok. You're in my prayers everyday!<BR>

Mitzi,<P>Hi thanks for all the email too! I am usually away over the weekends, but I didn't hear of this divorce site, I will look. Am assuming you mean right within MB site? I can say once again, you and I are living this horror side by side and at the same pace.<P>Sobeit,<P>I am glad to see you were here. I watch you. I too just can't post much worthwhile these days, but I watch all the people I know and try to meet the new ones too. <P>Dana<BR>

Hi Cat,<P>I'm here too, just!!<P>I'm going to post what has been happening in my little old life, it seems that every time I start to climb back up, I slide back 20,000 feet!!!<P>The latest stunt he has pulled will knock your socks off.<P>Thanks for caring about me. The reason I havent been on much lately is that I had an assignment due for uni. The subject is Business Maths and Statistics, a doozy. I'm not very good at maths at the best of times, so it took me ages to do the reading, and then the assignment. Luckily, a lot of it was done in Excel, so the computer did a lot of the calculations. Thank God. I can't even drop it, as it is my last core subject that has to be completed. If I don't do this, I don't get my degree...<P>Hope things are well with you and Sparky. I did respond to one of his posts, and felt guilty and disloyal to you, for what I said. I'll have to go back and try and find it.<P>love to you both, and to everyone else here<P>Jo

Hey Cat,<BR>Here I am. I have been busy since my kids have been on spring break this last week. I think that you know that my H emailed his lawyer and told him to postpone our trial date. He says he needs more time. I told my H to take all the time that he needed. He knows that I do not want a D, but I had to file for custody reasons.<P>He is coming home on Wed and spending the night here but is heading back out of town the next day back to the other office. I think it has been good for him to be away. His O/W is here at the office and he does not see her everyday. So maybe I have a chance to save my marriage.<P>He gave me money for the kids for summer clothes. He tried to fix the lawn mower. But I still have all the responsibilities and he is in a hotel room with mai d service.<P>I was pretty resentful over the weekend.<P>We did have a nice couple of days I was down there with him. We celibrated D birthday and he came to the hotel for lunch and was really quite attentive.<P>Thanks so much for asking about me.<P>I could use some advice. I feel like every move I make right now will decided my future with him.<P>Thanks Cat, and by the way how are things with you?

I'm here, just dont know what to say I am working on an update post and will put it here when finished under the topic I am so freckin stupid.....the job fell through and alot more I am trying to get my mind around it and this is the first time I have came here since he left almost two weeks ago. but I will be back to my self sometime just had a bad visit in a way....fill every one in later<BR>Love ya thanks for the thoughts<BR>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"It took me quite a while to realize that <B>the real deal</B> is to be able to be enough of a person your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you"<BR>----Stevie Ray Vaughan<P>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Hey guys!<P>Brentb: <BR>I already responded on your post, I am sorry for more hurt, and prayers to you and the girls <BR>And I think you should still "stick to your guns" on what you expect from her.<P><BR>Dana: Hugs, it will get better I promise!<BR>Thanks for your comments on counseling. <P>Rose: hope you are having a better week this week. It is *suppose* to be warm again. I am SO ready for warm weather all the time! Sorry you had a bad day.<BR>(((((((Rose))))))))<P>Hey Mitzi, didn't mean to forget you glad to read an update for you...prayers to you.<P>Bonnet Bonnet Bonnet.. holy cow girl, can he have Any more balls??? <P>Math sucks plain and simple.. I feel your pain <P>Yes I *did* read that response to Sparky..I think you owe me a bath bomb for that one chickie <P>kidding...no offense taken <P><BR>My3kids: you have mail if you haven't checked in a while. The resentment is more then understandable. <BR>You and the kids are still in my prayers and any advice you need, ask away!<BR>(((((Becky)))))))))<P>Lesa: Thanks for responding, I hope you and the kids are doing okay. I will wait for your update. ((((LMS))))<P><BR>Life with Me and Sparkydog is up/down/sidewise/here/there/everywhere/sad/mad/withdrawn/tense/conflicted/and sometimes even peaceful <P>How is that for confusing?!?! <P>Good to "hear" from you all, now where is Hopeful_1??<P><P>------------------<BR>Cat<P>catfrommb@yahoo.com