Too bad we don't have a yoyo icon. I am still on that horrible emotional yoyo, a lot of it is my own making. <P>H didn't call when he said he would tonight so as soon as the time came and went what did I do? What how went straight down, tears the works. He called! BUt I do know that I can't take much more of this emotionally and I told him. I told him that when I don't hear from him that I worry that he has changed his mind. He told me there was no chance of that, he told me he was sorry that he was late calling, in fact that is the first thing he said when i answered the phone.<P>He told me he wants us to be together. He is really trying to figure it out. The how to do it. I had some ideas but they won't work as he has no time off. He wants a car so that he can start taking things to our house a little at a time, till he has most of it there. I told him that I was a basketcase. It was hard to deal with him still being with her.<P>I asked a loaded question to night, but the answer was a good one. All last year when we discussed him stopping the affair he could not see how remaining friends with her would hurt. Of course at that time he was still very deep into his fantasy. Well I asked that question tonight but the answer had changed. He told me that he he didn't want to because it wouldn't work. Yes day light has reached his eyes.<P>He has no idea what that answer means to me I really think I can really start believing that this is going to work.<P>Now how do I get him out of her house!!!!!!!!???????????????? I am afraid I am pushing him to hurry but I have been waiting so long and I really think I am at the end of my rope if he doesn't hurry, of course I don't know what else I would do but wait till he leaves her. I do have an idea how to get rid of her and use my rope mmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!But it is illegal darn!!!!!!!<P>------------------<BR>di<P>

di,<P>I am so happy for the progress you've made... <P>You are doing so good...<BR>...being patient is so so so hard!<P>As my candles burn tonight...<BR>...I'll pray an extra prayer for you... for patience...<BR>...I'll pray an extra prayer for your H... for strength to speed up the process of getting out. <P>Don't do anything illegal...<BR>...please... you're too good a person. <P>In the mean time.. as you patiently wait...<BR>...pray for yourself... you're worth it. <P>Jim

Jim, Patience has never been my stong suit. I wok hard at it all the time. It is so hard. I do act like I have it but then I am going nuts inside. <P>It is so hard to be so close to ending this nightmare but yet it is just as far away as it was a year ago. I know we have made progress. But as long as he is with her I seem to die a little bit inside each day. <P> Nothing will be right until we are back together again. I won't feel safe till he is safely out of her house. But I promise I won't do anything illegal. It would just cause us to be apart longer. <P>Thanks for your prayers they give me strength to get through each day. {{{HUGS}}<P>------------------<BR>di<P>

I'm in the same boat as you. I was to call my H tonight and of course they are not home (He live with OW). So I set here and wait for his call. The last time I talked with him was Thursday in person. He had to come to the house. He told me to take a deep breath and hang in there (easy for them to say when they have no resposbility of the family and are having the time of their life) I feel like you so much. But I have to keep the faith and keep trying.

Di,<P>Hey, twin! You have to try to hold on a little longer, friend. He is now having to deal with the consequences of all his actions and the reality of it all has hit him fully in the face. For the first time, he seems concerned about somebody else's feelings, even if it is the OW. Before this, he didn't seem to care about anybody else at all. <P>You are so close to starting the recovery process, Diana. Don't forget that getting him home is just the BEGINNING of all the patience and hard work. You have so much more ahead of you to do. Not to discourage you - just to remind you. Yet, I know you and your H will make it, twin. You just have been so good and so cool....at least the part you have shown him. You did the best PlanA of anyone I can think of (maybe except sidney). You have worked so hard and now it is paying off for you.<P>Keep on praying and being as patient as you can!<P>Love you, Desiree<P>------------------<BR>"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."<P>Sir Humphry Davy<BR>

{{{{{{{{{{{{{di}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Your new mantra "I CAN be patient, I CAN be patient!!" <P>You'll be ok, I promise. Don't lose patience now, it's just the beginning!!!<P>Some bumps now, some more ahead, each one smaller and smaller and farther and farther apart!! Get strong, get ready, now the good part starts, ok???<P>We're here with you!<P>Love and hugs,<P>Lori

Hi SDS -<P>Uh oh, seems you are a little antsy, eh?<P>I tell you what...I'll trade with you! <P>You can take my Whack-A-Doodle and I will handle the wait and yoyo of your H........what do you say? <P>Di - you can do this....this is the home stretch. You must keep calm and not push H. <P>Just think how virtuous you will be with all your newfound patience!!! You'll never have to say that you are not patient again when this is over - we'll even get Lori to print you a Patience Certificate if you let your mind calm down!!!<P>You know how this goes Di - now settle down, plant your feet and hold on for the last ride!!!!<P>We are all here with you.<P>BIG HUGS and prayers for strength and patience,<P>Sheba