H and I do fine at times, but when things go bad, they really go bad! I LB REALLY bad last week before he left town for his job. I mean standing in the middle of the street swearing, yelling and eventually walking away from one another! Of course he emails me and I email back and LB so bad, that I can't even repeat what I said, but basically I went down the list of EVERYTHING he has done to me! I know, I know, I am my own enemy! I did apologize about an hour later for the "TONE" of my email (though I meant everyword I said) So now, it is very strained, no communication except kids, no positive feelings or tone of voice when their is conversation. I have no positive feelings right now to do Plan A. I know things are coming to a head and I want to Plan A the best i can this weekend. But it is out of fear of what he will do, or that he has truly given up on me. I have so much resentment in my heart, that I can't get my spirit up to do Plan A. Then I think, maybe he and I really have just reached the end of the road, too much water under the bridge, but I know that I can't go out without trying just 1 more time, i owe that to myself. Can anyone give me some hints, suggestions, ANYTHING, so that I can push my pride, resentment and anger aside and become the positive person I used to be or to at least make it a good environment that someone would want to come to. I am so discouraged.

trying2_4give,<P>I think one of the best solutions at avoidings LBs is to be able to see them coming.<P>When you sense them coming go to the bathroom.<BR>When you realise you have already LBed, stop and again...go to the bathroom.<P>You should also read the <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum30/HTML/000008.html" TARGET=_blank>use a filter</A> post and maybe take that advise as well.<P>Crossing my fingers for your LBfree weekend.<BR><P>------------------<BR>Scandinavian<BR>scandinavian@my-deja.com