I know I have always looked for success stories, especially when things are looking pretty bleak. Right now, things continue to look up and I am forever greatful to MB, Plan A, and all of the people on this board.<P>Late last Monday evening (June 26), I was sitting here in front of my computer lurking on the MB site. All of the sudden, a deep depression came over me and I just sat here and cried. For the first time in my life I really prayed to God. I didn't know what to do as Plan A was working but it felt we were at a standstill - not moving forward but not backward either. I felt lost. I went to bed and when I woke up Tuesday AM I knew it was time to talk to our pastor. It was amazing how calm I felt and I knew this was the right thing. Everything felt right about it. <P>I spent 3 hours talking to our pastor on Wednesday. He already spent time talking to my H and shared some of my H concerns with me. He was very enthusiastic to hear my H was calling me and we were talking as much as we were. It made me feel good. After our conversation I really felt at peace. It was truly amazing. I wish I could explain it but I can't find the words to.<P>Our D and I were going out of town for the weekend and I was depressed because I knew my H was going out of town with the OW. On Thursday night we took my MIL out for a belated BDay dinner. We had a really good time. At one point in the evening we were talking about a movie and I found out he had seen it. I knew it was with her and it immediately put me in a depressed mood. He picked up on that right away and asked me about it. I told him I was upset and then I walked away so he didn't have to see me cry. Later, I told him I couldn't help it. It bothers me. I also told him it was driving me crazy knowing he would be with her over the weekend. He told me she was going out of town WITHOUT HIM. And just like that I was out of my funk. Just those few words and my whole outlook changed.<P>So, our D and I went out of town and I talked to my H a number of times on Friday and Saturday. He was going to go out of town on Sunday but those plans fell through so I invited him to join us on Sunday and he actually sounded excited. By Sunday afternoon it sounded like he wasn't interested in joining us, though. It made me so sad. I took our D out swimming and when I came back I found out that he was on his way. It's amazing. I felt like when we were first dating and I would get butterflies in my stomach everytime I saw him.<P>He wasn't going to stay the night but I asked him to stay for me. AND HE DID. We still don't sleep in the same bed but it felt good to know he was so close to me. He stayed until early afternoon. I asked him to watch our D today as I had to work. Instead I found out he was going to a festival and I knew it was with her. So I was back in my funk.<P>I got home last night and went to Monday night service. It got me out of my funk and once again I felt at peace. I was heading home when H called and he asked me out!!! I was dumbfounded!! Unfortuantely, we couldn't find a sitter on such short notice but he still came home and spent about an hour with us. <P>As for today, I'm sick and couldn't make it the entire day at work. I came home and he called. Just wanted to wish me a Happy 4th! We talked and it was good. Nothing major. He said he was bummed about last night - that we couldn't go out. He knew I was sick and told me to take care. He was very sweet and also told me he would call later. And I know he will. <P>So here I am and things are good (other than being sick). I see things are looking up as long as I take it one day at a time. I get impatient and I have to remember to slow down and back off. The less I push the quicker he comes around. I know things will turn around and probably a lot quicker than I ever imagined. In a way I'm glad it hasn't happened yet. Just the last last week alone has brought so much more into my life and I'm not sure if that would have happened had we reconciled. I know we will reconcile and that time will be right for the both of us. In the meantime, I cherish the time I spend being with him or talking to him. I feel like I've found my friend again.<P>Hope this has helped someone out there. I know it brought a smile to my face just posting it.<P><P>------------------<BR>Molli<P>Find your strength within!