Hi all If each of you could say a prayers for Dylan and I I would appricate it. S who is 1 was up last night and into everything this morning. I feel im such a mean mother all isay is no. H called to tell me that he faxed some paper work to the company that he needed to. He is under alot of stress with his job, basically if he doesnt make it work he is out a job. To make a long story short he got ugly then called back to aologize. Well Im starting to cry and since most of you know my story Ill just ask for some prayers thanks. Why does he get ugly then in 10 minutes call to tell me he is sorry? <BR>Please God help me have the patience that H is asking me to have. Thank you for watching over Dylan and I so far through this mess. I know that this is all in your hands. I know that you do not like divorce. Please drive Satin out of my H live. He tells me he knows what is right but just cant do it (satin lives in him to know whats right but just cant do it. Please have the OW LB continually. I will sit back and NOT LB. H has ask me not to call I will not call him unless he calls me. Please help me do this. Please drive large thorns between H and OW.<P>Amen<P>Thanks for all the prayers. It seems I have one bad day a week. Better then before where it was every day. If anyone has any insight on this anger let me know.<P>

Prayers and a hug {{{{{{tigger}}}}} for you, Hon! I'm glad you know where to put your burden. May God bless you.<P>Aloha,<P>Leilana

Oh tigger,<P>How are you doing this evening? Feeling a little beter I hope. As you know, these hopeless feelings don't last, and they are fewer and farther between as the days go on. I don't know what I would have done if I was going through this when my kids were little. You are so strong tigger...I hope you know this about yourself.<P>Try to remember the thing about the fog when it all seems hopeless. You know your H, and you know that he is not himself right now. To leave you and your son is an insane thing for him to do...so think of him as insane for now. But do what you can to keep yourself sane first...you have to take good care of that baby. No parent on here will tell you that they didn't feel like all they said to their baby was "no" for the first few years. They get into a lot of stuff...we have been there.<P>Keep praying, and I will be saying a special prayer for you. You know it really does work. One day, when I was feeling really bad I went to talk to a preist (I'm not even Catholic!). He took the time out of his day to talk to me and pray with me. He gave me a special blessing. The next morning I woke up to an early morning phone call...it was H asking me not to give up on him. I need no more convincing than that that prayer does work.<P>Hang in there tigger...allison

Tigger<P>Your statice is "member", have you been here before, or for 6 mos--what ever the criteria is...<P>You sound so like me, and I am only a month past D-day. I have to admit, I have not cried for two days. I gues my focus on my H is taking the pain down a peg. i am trying to give him heavy good vibes so he can open up to me. We have had one really good talk in all of this month. I pray for another really soon. I love him.<P>I am letting go of the images that pain me, and concentrate on my feelings, and I try to refocus as I did when we were dating. I even ask him what is his favorite movie , etc. New conversation, just like you might have with someone new.<P>I am so long past this dating, flirting thing--please give me wome advice or ideas if anyone reads this!!!! I have been marr 16 years, if I remembered some of this stuff, maybe he wouldn't have sought another. I need to catch his eye again! Advice!!!!!!!