GG,<P>I didn't mean to imply that you did it for revenge. But the upshot is that you have gone a long ways toward evening up the pain scales in your marriage.<P>However, my post really wasn't about that. It was about the fact that there is every reason to believe that you two will have a very happy marriage. Many because Leon always did love you. He still does love you and he has been willing to take his lumps to prove it and make it happen.<P>Now, I know and you know that he cannot make you love him in any direct sense. You will have to come to that yourself and it will take awhile. You are in withdrawal from the OM. You very obviously have built some high walls and you show a fair amount of resentment toward him. These things take time to overcome and melt away.<P>But GG as you get more comfortable in this situation with Leon, I think you will be able to open you heart to him again and when you do I strongly suspect that you will find love buried deep in there. You will come to understand how better to communicate. You will come to understand your contributions to the marriage.<P>All of this understanding will come and when it does, I truely believe that you will find love in your heart for Leon. You simply have to give it a chance and give him a chance.<P>I hope this makes what I said earlier clearer.<P>God Bless You GG,<P>JL