Hi all<P>A quick update from my last posts which seems so long ago. I have plan B-ing for the last 2 months. My WS seems to enjoy it as we have not spoken at all. The only contact is by breif emails. The last time we spoke I was being blamed for everthing that has happened and I couldnt take the abuse any longer.<P>I am feeling down this week as my youngest daughter is moving in with her MUM this weekend into her unit. I have known that it would happen and tried to accept it and put on that happy face but I am feeling so upset that it has finally come. Ilove my family so much and am so disappointed that we cannot both work towards what we once had and to see what has happened to that once so close a family. <P>I miss the impromptu chats we had, laughing and playing together. It is so different now, my children are moving on. We dont talk on a level that we once did. It appears to me that we are careful of what is said so we dont upset anyone or not pass on what we are all doing.<P>I am so upset on the inside with my spouse for changing us all for her own self centred actions. I find it so difficult at times not to show how disappointed I am but I still carry on. I wish her all the best and my family all the happines they deserve because our separation has caused so much distress. <P>I have tried so hard to get them to talk about our separation and have never felt that they have opened up as much as I have to them.<P>I have planned a busy weekend because I know if I dont I will be as weepy as in the begining of this mess, as I am now. Maybe I needed a change even though I will always look back to the times to what we had together but its the future I now worry about. <P>Yes, I will keep my chin up and all the self esteem thoughts I have been working on.<P>The coming weeks will be hell for me but I am the only one that has to get through it by myself. <P>Just when I can see the light at the end of the tunnell someone turns it off again.<P>Love and best wishes to you all<P>Tim

Hey Tim,<P>I've been away for a while, I'm so sorry to read this post.<BR>You're right about one thing, the anger we feel because they selfishly put themselves first. And ruin a family in the process. They never seem to think of that, or any of the consequences of their actions.<P>I'll try to go back and read all your posts, to catch up with your story.<P>I still look into all the amublances around my area, wondering if they are you......... and wondering how you are going. I drive past the Caxton a lot, and often think of you then because of the dinner you were going to have with your W. I think I remember reading that that never happened.<P>I'm going to do a big post about my situation, not much different to anyone else's, but I have now filed for divorce. It becomes final 5 Dec. Now I don't know if I'm doing the right thing.......... oh well, just another rollercoaster..........<P>take care of you, and here's a big hug for you<P><BR>Jo