Wow, I've been away for some months now, it's sad to see all the new names here. Well, just wanted to give an update to all those who remember me. Husband and I are still together, moved out of state with our kids, due to his job. At first it brought us closer together due to the fact that we have no friends or family here, but now it has tapered-off (SP?) Lately, I have been feeling so much resentment, dreams of his infidelity and now it is creeping on my mind more. I wonder if he is still in contact with her(happened over 2 years ago). Sometimes I think that I create this dramas for myself as a way of saying "See, I knew u were up to no-good". I can't really explain it. Communication WAS good for us a few months ago, b4 we moved out of state. But now we are back to the "Surface Communication" again. I am becoming unhappy with him and feel like distancing myself. I then chalk it up to the fact that I am lonely here, having no friends or family it makes it impossible to go out due to the kids. I don't know, I am at a cross-roads right now where I can't explain anything I'm feeling lately, though I know it is a sadness in my heart. I hated having to comeback to you guys/gals with such a dreary story, but I can't talk to anyone else. Husband is still horrible at communication, just turns into a screaming match which is why I don't feel he is worthy of even trying anymore. Just wanted to let out some of my feelings. Thanks

Dear T24G:<BR> I only lurk now, I used to go to Women's Bible Study & EN forum when my H left, he's back and we are happy, but sometimes I look through all of them to see if my "old" friends are still here. <P>Sorry to hear your not so happy update. BUT one good thing is you are still together. I'm sorry you are feeling the way you are. I don't know your story since I never really was in this part of MB. <P>BUT just wanted to reach out to you so you knew someone was listening and praying for you and your family. I'm sure living in a new place is a tough thing. I've never moved farther than 6 miles away - If I had to do that I'd go batty. <P>You are right, at least you can come here and catch up. HOPEFULLY you will find inner strength in the good of your marriage and continue pushing forward. Good luck and God bless.<P>Pookie~<P>

Hi Trying,<P> I'm sorry to hear how you feel and I have to tell you that I've gone through the same thing....how long ago did you move? <P> We moved out of state 1yr. ago because of the A and it's been a miserable year, very lonely and I have missed my "old" life terribly. I have to say that it is finally getting better, I'm starting to feel more at home and I'm making myself get out as much as possible..... But talk about resentments , I was filled with them this year.....<P>What I'm trying to say is hang in there , it WILL get better but I'm not so sure I go along with Harley's advice about moving....at any rate, I understand..........LU

We moved less than 6 months ago. It was due to a better job and we always wanted to relocate so when the opportunity came up we took. I have my good days and bad days, but lately it has been bad and it seems that I am falling back into my old patterns and not feeling like trying to make it better. Me always the one that tries to communicate or bring up the things that need to be discussed. I want someone else to be the LEADER for once! To take my hand and say "How can WE make this better TOGETHER". Doesn't look like I will ever have that with my husband.

Hi Trying,<P> I can relate completely ....my H is exactly the same , in fact he is the type "it's over , let's move on"and back to business as usual (in otherwords I feel like I have gotten nothing, no regrets, no remorse etc,no I love yous ) just "I'm here, what do you want?".<P> Add that to the fact that moving is completely stressful and a LOSS it's been a tough year. However, I am generally just happier here......this is not my favorite place but I am relating more to people etc. and getting more involved. I think I am just happier myself....This does not mean I'm happy with my H or the situation but I'm doing more for ME....At any rate, I sure can relate and hopefully in 6mos. you might feel a tad better?....... LU