Haven't posted here for awhile, but I need all of your input....<P>Two days ago H called me about what I said to ow...she must have emailed him from Germany to tell H I was harrassing her. All I wanted to do was ask her a question regarding if they were still emailing each other. H has told me he did email her telling ow what was going on in his life..H told me they had no contact, but he still cared very much for her. (H is still on chat lines, and as far as I know doing the sex chat lines) H bought a laptop, and keeps it with him all the time. (H is out of the house now)..When H accused me of lying, defending the ow, and believing her, I told H to go to her if she makes him happy. That I still loved him, but I can not be on this emotional rollercoaster anymore. H hung up on me. A little while later H called me and said "don't say anything just listen" H said he was sorry, should never have said those things. I cut him off, and told him that if he really cared for her to go to her. His reply was what ever. And he hung up. Yesterday I emailed H and told him I have no control over him, I love him, I was hurt, but I need to find myself and be happy. No word from him. Today I emailed H again, telling him how much I love him, and I will always be here for him. This is the last he will hear from me...I told H I will wait for his call. Up until all this happened he was calling me 2/3 times a day, and stopping by the house at least 3 times a week. I think emotionally he can't let me go. But H can not have his cake and eat it to. I know he racked with guilt, and I know in my heart he cares for me. Please give some input if I did the right thing?????<P>Kathie
