Well, I cant even remmber my last post.<P>The D-final in April<BR>Custody- her<BR>finances-WOW!!!!!!<P>After my rollor coaster ride. I got so mad at her I couldn't stand it. You know I dont believe in mixed race relationships. I hated to hear anything about it. VERY BITTER at her.<P>Things were easy for me. We fought all the time. I never stopped loving her. Know he has run her bills up and left. now she works to jobs to catch up. I hate to see her have to, BUT SHE DID THIS HER SELF.<P>My friend- I met her about 3 months ago. We get along pretty good I guess. I just cant get the same feelings for anyone else. I get fed up ith other women then stop seeing them. Its getting this way with this one.<P>I think it has to do with Heather's emotions. I'm just not sure what to do. Break it of or not. She is nice, my kids like her, I DONT REALLY CARE FOR THAT. cause thats all they talk about: Her to me and my W.<P>SHEBA it is great to hear from you. I was really hoping to hear from you and EMPTYSHELL most of all.<P>THANKS, PAUL

Paul -- I know this is going to sound strange, but I'm sort of torn as to wether or not to welcome you back. I have thought about you a great deal over the last year, and even tried to get in touch with you once or twice to see how you were doing. Then I heard about the situation concerning your ISP and figured that you would simply be someone I would not be able to reach.<P>Anyway, I can understand your post probably better than anyone except Sheba, of course, since as I recall, she and I spent a lot of time talking with you when you first came to this forum. As I am sure you remember, the two of us have a lot in common concerning our infidelity histories.<P>As far as Heather is concerned . . . I can only tell you to take things slow make sure that you know what you really want, and remember that the kids have got to come first.<P>Obviously, since I am still here, I have had some progress, and some set backs. It can take a very long time for everything to become clear and to sort itself out.<P>My thoughts and prayers go out to you tonight my friend. If you would like to talk more, you are more than welcome to Email me at MB_Empty_Shell@homtail.com <p>[This message has been edited by Empty Shell (edited November 18, 2000).]

EMPYSHELL- Yes I remimber. You and SHEBA helped me through a lot.<P>I am gonna take things really slow this time. A lot has happened the past year. In the city I live I'm now a fire fighter, and dont want to leave here at this time. I have gotten stronger emotionally(I THINK). <P>As far as what I want I'm confused. I love her, and cant really find happieness with anyone else. The thoughts of her interfier. I havent been able to date anyone for any lenght of time. Dont really want to. <P>Thanks for bieng here. I do appreiciate it.<P>PAUl

Hi Brown -<P>Sorry for the delay.....<P>I wouldn't call this "spilling it"..more like a trickle!!!! LOL!!!!<P>More data please!!!! lol!!!<P>How have you and your ex been getting along during this past year? Have you had regular visitations with the kids, etc? You mentioned being in another town.....is it still close by to see them frequently?<P>What has she been doing - how many relationships? Anything stable or more like the old one with the truck driver who boozed it up while washing clothes?<P>As far as your girlfriend....well, if your heart ain't in it - it ain't in it!! What are you really doing then? Wasting time and keeping lonliness away perhaps? Does she know how you feel about your ex.....REALLY? <P>I don't think that you want to go into a full focus back onto your "wife" - but I think that this is a great opportunity for you to finally learn some patience through a Plan A behavior modification for yourself.<P>I'll await your giving more information.........LOL!!!<P>BIG HUGS,<P>Sheba