In the dream I have medication that can end life painlessly. I share some of this with my mother (who has been dead for 6 years) and with a girlfriend who has had many surgeries. They are now out of their pain, thanks to the medicine. <P>It is a type of wood putty material which is administered through a hypodermic syringe injected into the jugular vein, in the neck. I give myself a dose, but it leaves me half way dead/half way alive. THere is no more of the medicine. I need the rest to finish the job or I will be "undead" for eternity. I turn to a doctor and a bishop and ask them to refill the prescription. I am crying and upset. <P>The blood is not moving in my veins, it's sort of solidified, and I don't feel physical pain, but I'm so unhappy.<P>Insights?<BR><P>------------------<BR>Belle, Domestic Goddess

Dear Bellvue<P>I have worked as a psychic on and off for approximately 25 years and your dream is one of the most prolific I have yet to hear about. You are in a state of flux and you are looking for a quick fix, hence the medicine in the dream. You are out of focus with what is happening in your life at present and you are not observing the changes occuring around you in a positive way hence the medicine not working on you and causing you to stay in a state of limbo. Neither cured nor dead. <P>The dream indicates that you are not focusing on yourself properly and you are waiting on another to make it right for you. Get busy with your life, get out and about with friends or just walk with your dog, if you don't have one, borrow a neighbours. Teehee.<P>The message in your dream is stop dwelling on the past (your mum) and the negative (your friends surgeries) and move into the future and your own happiness. Take the focus of the other and start to focus on you. <P>Forevertrue<BR>

Wow Belle,<P>I was going to say the part about limbo too, not feeling like you are fully alive in your life ( marriage) But forevertrue beet me to it with alot more..<BR>lora

Forevertrue -<P>I hate to bust in on Bellevue's dream thread. But I had a dream recently that was somewhat upsetting.<P>There was this pregnant girl and she was going from house to house looking for someone to help her - because she was about ready to deliver. I was in the house I grew up in - where my parents still live - but it was my house and no one was around. Anyway, I couldn't really recognize the girl's face, but I felt like I knew her - like you would know an old high school friend. I told the girl to come into my house, that I would help her - since the baby was about ready to come. When she got in the house, she started foaming at the mouth, and her face was no longer human - it looked like a screeching bat with no fur. I was immediately terrified and started looking for a crucifix (like in those old scary movies, I thought it would ward off the evil spirits). I couldn't find a crucifix, so I ran out to find a priest - no priest. I was terrified and I started repeating over and over again "Jesus Christ is my savior. Jesus Christ is my savior." I woke up saying that phrase.<P>Pretty scary - maybe I just had too many chocolate donuts before I went to sleep or something (I dream about chocolate donuts a lot too, kind of like Homer Simpson). I hate to ask, but any thoughts? I really don't want to bother you, but it was such a vivid and scary dream. If you don't have time to respond - or don't care to - that's okay. I can kind of read into it anyway.<P>Then I had this other dream fairly recently. A co-worker/father-figure of mine died last year of a massive heart attack. I rode in the ambulance with him to the hospital - the whole time just praying and praying that he would make it. Anyway, I had this dream that me and my boss and a friend were playing golf in my house - hang with me - and we felt like the house was haunted. We kept seeing a ghostly figure, and I recognized it as the co-worker who had died. I had this overwhelming urge to ask him a question, so I asked him - Am I going to heaven when I die? He looked at me and said yes. Then he explained that God had wanted him to tell me that "no" I wasn't going to heaven, let it sink in, and then say "just kidding." My friend said that God wanted him to say that because "he has a sense of humor, too." But my friend said that he didn't think I'd get the joke right now - so he answered my question honestly.<P>So, do you think I'm thinking too much about my after life or what? Anyway, again, sorry to do this and I completely understand if you don't want to answer - no big deal.<BR>

This might sound weird , but since all of this has started I have not had ONE single dream of any kind , but one night I did awaken to the thought of my wife planting a passionate kiss on m....it was so so so so real....but haven't had one since....kinda weird......

SKM:<P>I hope you won't take this the wrong way, but I laughed out loud reading your description of the second dream. Something about the image of God going "No, you're going to Hell. . . .NOT!!!!" just cracked me up.<P>I'm not sure that I have any constructive thoughts on the whole dream thing. I'm certainly no psychic, and I either never remember mine, or they're so literal and obvious that it's embarrassing. But . . .<P>As to the first, what happened? You showed an act of kindness to someone in desperate need, allowed them into your home, and something bad happened. The person in need was going to have a child. Aren't you and your H trying to have a child and having some difficulties? Perhaps its related to that. How do you feel about having a child? Are you ready for it? Scared about it? Feel unworthy?<P>On the other hand, especially in connection with the second dream, the focus might be more on the religious themes. I've gotten the sense from some of your other posts that you've felt a bit alienated from God these past few months. The final image in your first dream, of you all alone, unable to find a protective talisman, unable to find a priest, and just chanting that phrase over and over again, seems to me to speak about abandonment. Perhaps you've felt spiritually alone, easy prey for the evil forces of the world and unable to protect yourself from them (hence looking for holy items or men to protect you).<P>The second dream (while, forgive me, an unqualified hoot) might be in that vein. Someone you greatly respect has, even in death, more knowledge than you. The mentor now has a direct line to God. <P>Interestingly, the first question you ask him is not whether there even IS a God or a heaven -- you take that for granted. You just ask what's going to happen to YOU when you die, whether you're going to heaven. Then, while it's confirmed that you're going to heaven (and how would you know THAT until the end of your life? Couldn't you always commit an unpardonable sin?), God and this mentor share a little joke at your expense. So you ultimately ARE saved, but there's a distance between you and God -- he's making what is essentially a cruel joke at your expense that only the compassion of your friend saves you from. Given your firm faith, that must have been difficult to hear.<P>Anyway, I'm probably way off base, and I know that you were asking the professional psychics for advice, and I'm sure that there's would be far better. <P>I hope EVERYONE on this thread, and this board, have only pleasant, wonderful dreams tonight! Take care, everyone.

Oh, Taxman. I even had to laugh at the second dream. It wasn't really scary or anything, it was more funny. See, I'm quite the practical joker here at work - nothing serious, but every April 1st I play a teeny joke on someone at work. So, I found it quite comforting that "God had a sense of humor." And I think he does, otherwise, we who are made in his image, would not have a sense of humor.<P>I tend to remember all of my dreams - here's one that's even better than the first two. I hate to hog space here, but it's just weird how your mind works sometimes. <P>I'm Catholic (and don't say that explains it, lol). During the affair, I was always fighting this battle within me. I knew that what I was doing was wrong, but I just couldn't stop it from snowballing - I had no self-control. Anyway, the dream. . .I had a dream that the Pope (John Paul II) was in this pasture walking around and preaching. (Please not that I have never had a dream about the Pope before). Anyway, when I was younger, my parents took me to see Pope John Paul II when he "first came into office" so to speak. I can remember it like it was yesterday. Anyway, in my dream, the Pope was not as old as he is now - he was as I remember him back when I was a kid. There was no Pope Mobile, no security guards - just the Pope and like a flock of people walking around in this pasture. He was so close, I felt as if I could say his name he would turn to me. At any rate, I kept trying to get closer to the Pope - to meet him, I guess, say hi whatever, but I just couldn't get close enough. It was weird, again.<P>I remember pretty much all of my dreams. The other night, I dreamt that my H was having an affair with this strawberry blond -I was hot. I woke up and hit my H with the pillow. I do that sometimes.<P>Here's another funny one,though. I tend to talk in my sleep, too - and sometimes it creeps my H out. But one night he said I was just giggling and said "did you get one?" The next day he asked me what I had a dream about - here it is. . .I had a dream that there were hundreds of babies - cute little babies - like the Gerber babies or the ones you see on commercials. All of them had helium balloons tied around their cute little bellies and they were just floating around and I was trying to catch one, and I remember being really happy and laughing and asking my H "did you get one?"<P>Then there was one when I was stuck in an elevator and the cable broke - it kept falling and falling - there were other people in there with me. I don't remember the elevator crashing, but the next "scene" had me walking out of the building where the elevator was all mangled up on the ground. I don't know what happened to the other people but I remember saying "Phew! that was a close one."<P>Most of the time, I just dream about food, but some of them can be pretty wild. My H thinks that some of them could even be made into screen plays. . . Happy Thanksgiving to you , too.

Dear SKM<P>Your dreams are very diverse. You are also in a state of confusion regarding your life.<P>Your path is one of making amends to yourself and to your husband. (re the pregnant girl - indicating a new beginning and then the screeching bat - indicating a self loathing on your part) You have not forgiven yourself yet for something that you let get out of control. (I do not know your story). Revisiting your parental home is a way of going back to a time of contentment.<P>Anything ugly appearing in a dream indicates a loss of self and a distraction from reality. Quite symbolic. It also indicates you are the originator of your own problems and asks you to look closer at your interactions with other people. You are too intense and over sensitive. <P>Anything religious in a reading is indicative of a desire to find a higher purpose and also brings a realisation that you alone cannot fix what requires to be fixed. You are looking for divine intervention and yes that is a good sign. Sometimes we just have to let go and let God. <P>The message to you in your dream is let the past go, forgive yourself as you have been forgiven and start to re-focus on what is real and not what is imagined. I can also tell from your dreams that you analysis way too much and you concentrate on details that are less important than the big picture. Lighten up - not meant as anything derogatory - just start to be happy again. <P>Oh nearly forgot, babies in a dream are always a sign of cleansing and new beginnings. You will make it through all of this but just learn to let the past go and move forward again. Let go now or you could cause yourself more problems, either real or imaginary.<P><BR>Foreverture

I'm with SKM. I can't resist crashing in on this thread. For the last two years I've had trouble remembering my dreams. Used to be good at it. On Monday, I started day 1 of the patch to kick the nasty habit of smoking. Boy howdy, I had a dream I could remember and it was bizarre. <P>My H and I both work parttime at the same location. For some unknown reason in the dream, I drove by myself while H got a ride from a friend (male friend, more of an acquaintance than friend). I got on the expressway first and had the living daylights scared out of me by a man driving a big red convertible with the top down. The car was pointed the right direction, but he was in reverse, driving very fast and his eyes were closed. Last thing I remember was hoping that my friend and H could dodge the same maniac. hmm.... Just thought of something else that I hope has nothing to do with anything. The friend in the dream lost his wife to cancer and three other major illnesses in March. <P>

Hi Lonesome Heart<P>First thing I have to say is - Do not wear the nicotine patches to your bed. You don't smoke when you sleep so you do not require to wear the patches at night. Second thing I have to say is - Nicotine replacement is known to cause vivid dreams because of the stimulus it gives the bloodstream, heart and lungs. <P>Anyway, your dream interpretation is such - you tend to be overprotective of others and do not allow them to take full responsibility for their actions. You seem to be an enabler to a certain degree, strict in manner but soft in nature. Hence the worry about your partner and his friend in the other car, where was your concern for yourself to get out of the way.<P>Your intuition is also telling you something but you are ignoring it - ie red in a dream indicates danger, that is why it appeared in the form of a car. You cannot avoid it - eyes closed - you don't want to see what is really going on around you. Something is amiss but you are choosing to ignore it or pretend that it is not happening. <P>Go with your intuition more, you are aware of your sixth sense but are choosing not to go with it.<P>It could benefit you, if you believed in yourself more.<P>Forevertrue

Thank you forever true. The man in the red car was definitely dangerous! I thought maybe he represented evil, not caring who's lives are destroyed by his reckelss driving. I'm definitely an enabler in my marriage, although a reluctant one. My H is irresponsible, and I stupidly accommodated him for the first 12 years of our marriage. I'm trying hard to stop that, but the result is being broke and we're facing bankruptcy. <P>I used to have a very strong intuition. Seems like it never steered me wrong. I followed a risky path based on what my inner voice told me. That path has led to disaster. Now I wonder if my inner voice was really there for me or if it was wishful thinking. When I try to listen to my inner voice now, it's very quiet if I hear anything at all. I'd love to follow my intuition, but I've lost it! <P>During my time at MB, I've tried hard to recognize my contributions to the failures of this marriage. The fact remains, however, that my H really badgers my self-esteem when I try to talk to him about anything besides gardening, computers, politics or weather. We're in a financial crisis, and he won't participate in making decisions about our future. Each time I try, he tells me I'd be nowhere without him, and that I don't have what it takes to be successful, on and on. I know blaming our spouses for things doesn't solve problems, but I really believe things would be different if he was "there" for me. <P>I wonder if being the first one in the dream to encounter and avoid the danger of the red car is significant? Or perhaps facing the danger alone is significant? Being alone pretty well sums up how I feel in this marriage. <P>You know, maybe I do have an inner voice lately. It's been telling me to end this marriage. Not a pretty prospect. sigh Thank you forevertrue for your insights. I won't wear that patch to bed again!

Forevertrue -<P>Wow, you really hit it on the head. All of the things you mentioned, I already know myself. I am a WS, and my H and I have been in recovery for about 8 months. We're doing really well - I have gotten forgiveness from my H and from God - but I have yet to forgive myself. I have very bad cycles of "self-loathing," feel like I have no purpose in life. I am getting better, but you're right, I haven't forgiven myself, yet. And, I know that's wrong, but like you said, I feel like all my problems were self-created and I'm finding it hard to get past the fact thatI put myself and my H in this situation.<P>I do so much want to be happy again. And, I'm getting there - I want a fresh start, but . . .well, anyway. Thanks for your interepretation of my dreams - it was pretty much what I thought, but I really thought that maybe God was telling me that evil is still in my life - or that I was evil - because of that bat thing.<P>Thanks again.

Forevertrue,<BR>I am really impressed with your analysis, and I was always interested in my dreams and what they mean. I have two quick ones, can't remember much. I am the WS, my H and I are working on rebuilding.<BR>Both of these dreams occurred on Saturday nights.<BR>My first one: I am driving in a car, down a two lane highway, there is a river on one side of the road. It is light out. Not sunny, but like on a cloudy day. I think someone in the car with me, but I never look at this person. I don't know who it is. We come upon an accident. There are car parts all over the place. Tires, rims, bumpers, there is like this truck on its side down an imbankment, cars are mangled everywhere. We drive on and on, all the while I am looking at all this destruction. I make a comment, like "boy, I can't wait to see what caused this accident.<BR>Next dream about 2 weeks later.<BR>I'm in an apartment helping a person pack, because they are going away. I really have no recollection of this person. I don't remember seeing her, but I know it was a female. I am packing a small suitcase, it is old, like from the 1960's. I am feeling really tense and scared because I knew that when this woman came back from her trip, she was going to be murdered by a guy that lived in the building, and I was feeling sad that that was going to happen.We went out to her car, and we drove down to the other end of the parking lot, which was long, and got into another car. The next thing I remember, was going back to the apartment, and blowing out candles, which were in the bathroom.<P>As I mentioned, I am the WS, D-day was Labor day weekend. Any thoughts, would be greatly appreciated!

ChrissyB<P>Your dreams are self explanatory. A two way highway in a dream indicates choices. The river to one side is showing the fact that you let things take their course, you put up no fight. There was no other way as far as you were concerned, pretty much indicates that you went with the flow. The crash scene also indicates that what came next was exactly what you experienced. The crash of the affair and the devastation to everyone - you felt detached from it all, it was too much for you to think about, too many decisions and too little effort from you. I mean that in the way that you felt your life was so out of control that you could not pick the pieces up and had no way of fixing it. It indicates that you felt you deserved to be punished. The dream indicates that the situation you found yourself in was not all your fault, you were very neglected. The question the dream asks of you is - what happened to allow this destruction into my life.<P>The second dream - well my feeling is that your affair partner was also involved with someone else - maybe a wife, or a girlfriend.<BR>You felt her presence but did not want to think too much about her. Hence the feeling that she was going to be murdered - ie it would kill her if she really knew the truth. <BR>The packing in a dream always indicates that you want to run away, pack up and move on. Your dreams indicate to me as a psychic that you have had emotional trauma in your early formative years. Can I just say something, no offence meant, you are a very strong person outwardly but you are so sensitive on the inside and you do not like people to see this side of you, why not. You have so many qualities that you hide from the world, if you do not show them now, when will you get another chance. Your dreams indicate that you feel like a passenger in this life, time to take control and move upwards to be the person you can be. Do not think it - say it.<BR>There is nothing to be ashamed of being gentle and soft.<P>Forevertrue<BR>

Bellvue<P>I did not look at what others had to say so i would not be influenced by what they had to say about your dream. I have found dreams to be wxpressive. i can usually only get insights into other's meanings, not able to read or understand my own unless they are blatant.<P>The unhppiness is your life with your H right now. You feel only half alive with the love you yearn for not to be given to you to make you happy. Love is not the medicine in your dream, however. The bishop is your spiritual leader, or one you unconciously rely on for guidence; the doctor is your other caregiver, also unable to help. This could be h or a family member or your actual physician! Someone you depend on for easing pain.<P>The wood putty consistency of the poison(medicine) could refer to the fact that you feel as dead as a peice of dry rot, a block of wood. But only half--the side you yearn for, for love, caring and stability. The other unaffected half is what is left of you now in your inner pain. It is like being in a waking-coma. You know what is going on, but are unable to stop the the torrent that barrages you. There is nothing you can do to change it, you just have to be the victim of its effects on you. Helpless.<P>It is this helplessness that is reflected here. And there is no cure(in the dream.) you cannot cure your situation either. Only be patient. <P>Like me. <P>This is only an opinion! But I like psychology! Or guessing!

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Can I just say something, no offence meant, you are a very strong person outwardly but you are so sensitive on the inside and you do not like people to see this side of you, why not. You have so many qualities that you hide from the world, if you do not show them now, when will you get another chance. Your dreams indicate that you feel like a passenger in this life, time to take control and move upwards to be the person you can be. Do not think it - say it.<BR><HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Forevertrue, thank you for your analysis. Wow! What you said about me is so true. I have this very hard exterior, that I am finally starting to chip away at. I have built up so many walls since my childhood, and I never let anyone in. Plus what you said about the passanger in life. That is exactly what my therapist has said to me. I have some severe Co-Dependent issues, on top of my own drug and alcohol issues. I am in recovery though. My therapist also believes that I had childhood trauma, stemming abandoment issues regarding my father, and the emotional unavailability of mother. I have hope though. Thanks again!