Well, I found the Slut-from-and-in-Hell's grave today. She died in 1991 at age 42, 5 years after she infected my H and me with her filty disease.<P>I just about gagged when I read the inscription "Her Memory Is Blessed".<BR>Well, to her mother and brother, maybe.<P>I'm trying to find some satisfaction in the fact that she never married and apparently never had children. I'm trying to find satisfaction that she left no permanent impact on this earth; there will be no grandchildren, great-grandchildren, etc. There will be no part of her that lives on--that after everyone who knew or loved her is gone, no one will care that she ever lived.<P>That said, I did say out loud some of what I wanted to say to her. I don't think that was enough for me, but I'll give it a few days to see if my anger eases up.<P>In the meantime, I have to keep showing my H that I do love him and appreciate him. I love him so much and he's being so sweet that it's easy to behave lovingly toward him.<P>When I'm away from him, though, I still feel such incredible anger. I no longer have respect for him. I don't fully believe him about this affair yet. I keep wondering when the other shoe is going to drop.<P>I mostly feel so exhausted and sad right now. I guess the anger is doing that to me.

Are you okay?<P>hugs your way (((hugs)))

Sweetpea<BR>I understand the exhaustion part.<BR>I'm glad that you took this step towards closure. You deserved it for yourself. Apparently both she and your H got to have closure. Now you are on your way to yours. <BR>Now the next step is to decide that you want to take care of yourself!!! Take a shower. Cry a little. Take some deep breaths and let it go.<BR>

wooowhee sweetpea,<BR>(((hugs))) You must be having some pretty powerful emotions today. I am so sorry. Yep, I say crying is good, screaming where no one can hear but yourself, running til your lungs burn. <BR>I have no idea what to say to offer you any comfort. I doubt I am the only one that has had thoughts of seeing the ow dead or in great pain. But for it to really have it happen would be very tough to deal with. <BR>Lots of care, good karma, prayers and hugs coming your way. cl<BR>