What a cr-ppy day. I can't concentrate on my work or anything for that matter. The thought that my W may have already given up on our marriage is heavy on my mind. I'm really trying to dig myself out of this emotional hole, but having no luck. You can find the background <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum30/HTML/000548.html" TARGET=_blank>here</A>.<P>Any ideas/thoughts/words would be welcome, feel free to post on the other thread (it's in the Plan A/Plan B section).<P>------------------<BR>Bill<BR>~~~~<BR>Remember the truth that once was spoken, "To love another person is to see the face of God."

When you're feeling a bit down...<P>...check out some of the <B>inspirational</B> sections/posts on <A HREF="http://pages.ivillage.com/mb_nsr/MB_NPT.html" TARGET=_blank>Notable Posts/Threads</A>.<P>...it helped me during last year's holiday doldrums...<P> <P>Jim

I am sorry you are down today. It is such a hard season because it has so much to do with love and family. With the family in turmoil, it is very hard to be merry. I too fall into that trap. <P>I keep trying to think of my kids and the love I have this season. My H has no love for me and is not willing to commit in any way to me.<P>I also know that I am stuffing a lot. A lot of questions(LB ones) and a panicky feeling that after the holidays, he will leave. But I take day to day, and do not make any waves. <P>We have a 2 day vacation planned while the kids are away, and I have promised to let my heart lie still until after that. Just to take any good things, like not being an [censored] to me, or helping me to get my car, or playing with the kids....and dwell on that only. And not let any thoughts through that cause pain or my self esteem to suffer. That is my plan.<BR>

There's almost no doubt in my mind that she's just holding on until after the holidays, then she'll spring the divorce cr-p on me. I hope I can bring myself up and change my attitude, but right now I'm feeling profoundly depressed. I'm at work and have no idea how I'll get anything done. I met with her counselor for the firtst time yesterday. I've been worried that the crazy stuff coming from my W was the advice of her counselor. That's not the case. She a great and wise lady. The bad news is that my wife isn't listening to her. I love my wife. I can't see any good here right now. I'm so sad.