I understand plan A now! I read a post from (I think Lori-sorry) in the notable posts. It talks about how Plan A is for ME. . . see I was also thinking of it as a way to win him back. But it's about working on the things I want to change about me. Those changes may result in getting him back, they may not, but either way I'm growing & learning about myself & about relationships. It does also still allow me to have hope for us & shows me how I should relate to him during this time . . . or any time for that matter.<P>I'm sorry, but this is such a relief to me. I've been praying & asking which road I should take (since we're not married-I've got something to say to all of you later about that). I would know that God would want me to work & work if we were married, but was unsure if He was telling me to move on or to still believe in my feelings for him. I can still care, but what He was trying to tell me is that there's much in me that needs fixed & I need to get working. I've been stuck in this spot of feeling sorry for myself (not that I don't still a little) and being afraid and not knowing which way to go. Now I know I don't have to go anywhere, I just need to stay right here & get the broom out & get cleaning in me! Don't get me wrong, I know this is nowhere near the end of the road for my whole situation-but at least it's a beginning & I feel finially like I know what I'm supposed to do.<P>What I wanted to tell you all earlier about being married, is that I almost feel guilty about even posting here because I know most, if not all, of you are married, and we were only engaged. I don't feel like I can say "OW" or "A", I feel like I'm taking something from all of you and your situations. I guess with me it's just that I know that I still love him very much & he is what I want. Just felt the need to say that. Thanks so much for all the help you've been so far.
