Hey all,<P>Took the kids out for dinner tonight.. It was a lot of fun and we had a good time. Went to RED LOBSTER.. Kids choice.. They know how to eat.<BR>Anyhow I am sitting there looking around the resturaunt and, I felt this sudden sadness. It was very depressing to see families and couples having dinner and looking so happy together. I really miss that. It just seems weird to do everyday things and H not be there, I sometimes find myself wandering what he is doing, eating, watching, thinking. I used to know everything now I am clueless.It seems so strange that he has just vanished from my life. Everything he does is with OW.<P><BR>I also have panic that one day I will be out and am going to run into H and OW. I try to go into areas where it is likely they wont. H lives 5 mins from me. I found myself dressing up and doing my make up tonight only because of the slight chance this could happen, normally I would have thrown on jeans and a sweat shirt with no make up...<P>Just a few thoughts of mine for the night. I am really bored, son is at a friends and my daughter is working on school stuff. I think I am gonna go read a bit.<P>Goodnight all..<P>Diana

Hey Goochy<BR>You know all those people that look so normal and so happy?<BR>That isn't necesarily the truth.<BR>Hang in there Okay?<BR>If you run into your H.....remember you didn't do anything to be ashamed of.<BR>I know it is tough...believe me I do know.<BR>You are the one with the kids. You are the one who is hanging into sanity. Pat yourself on the back for me and a whole bunch of us. <BR>

Goochy,<P>I agree with "wasstubborn". Many of those people we see being couples are not so happy, as it would seem. Yes, they might be together, but maybe they'll never be happy. One train of thought I have is that if my wife and I ever get the chance to work on our marriage (dependent on her of course), it could be stronger than ever before. If we don't, that is another story. But alot of people will live through relative unhappiness forever, and not do anything about it. Know what I mean?<P>You are doing it right, so don't forget that. Glad you had fun. Don't worry about running into H and OW, because they would be more uncomfortable than you...just my opinion. It IS hard to see people being couples. I feel it too. But we can just do our best for now.<P>Sure he is just with OW for now....but that is fantasy...unfortunately, they can't see it yet. We are armed with the knowledge of what is really happening, and thus can sit back and wait for the fantasy to lift.<P>Hang in there. You sound better tonight than last night (when you were ready to LB bigtime). You are strong and are being impressive.