I got home from my fab weekend with the MB girls from AZ's house. My H had called me earlier in the evening to see if I was having dinner with them, I said thank you no, I would return at the kids' bedtime. <P>I felt pretty positive because I had rapped my mouth off at the get-together and was really at peace with the thought of my new friends. Also for 3 days before I left he had had no drinks. It sounded as if he had a successful weekend without me, and I detached from my roles and had a great time!<P>I return, and walk into the house and the first thing I see is my H rushing around the kitchen in a panic. I asked him what was wrong, he said he spilled. I said okay as it appeared he was getting ready to mop up the WINE.<P>I went back out and got my stuff. I come back in and he is bawling into the sink. I come up to him and stroke his back as he whispers, "I was just about to tell her about us and then I spilled, this is so hard!"{sob,cry}<P>My heart leaps as my brain says yea! He is telling OW about our progress!!<P>Nope. Wrong again.<P>He was trying to tell HIS MOTHER about US. He has not had the gaul to tell her up until now. I asked him last week to do it, that it was hurtful when she gushed about our perfect marriage, etc. <P>H was drunk, too. And to tell her when he knows she will be drunk and brutal(verbally), is insane. I would tell her some time, mid-day! What a mess. He fell apart and could not continue. He drained himself with a good cry outside. <P>My kids are really getting confused. They saw him cry, and did not ask why. They are already trained not to ask. Isn't that atrocious? I am going to talk about it tomorrow to H. I want him to talk to them about it and show them it is okay to cry sometimes.<P>Yep, he is trying, but he is still going the wrong way(away from me.) But he is cleaning house, finally. I am thankful for every baby step he makes to any decision, So in the Fog is he. <P>Goodnite Resilient, AZ and Lora! <P>

OMG Beth,<P>Lora alerted me to your post. We don't have a lot of time to all reply, but we will when everyone is settled again in their own places and have time to think straight.<P>Let's look at this as a major breakthrough...the man is FEELING at last. <P>Don't forget...you have a friend on Caribbean Lane with a comfy couch if you need to get the heck out of there...plenty of room for a couple extra kids too.<P>Will write later.<BR>allison