Hi Too Trusting,<P> I see that you've posted on Chris' thread, have been wondering how you are doing? I hope you are ok ....are you getting support?, how are your kids?....Thought alot about you over Christmas........LU

Hi, thanks for thinking of me. It has been a long year with too many "surprises"<P>I am doing well though. I am back in school and loving it. Getting good grades...not bad for a 44 y.o. who has been out for 14 years!!!<P>I am finding a life of my own. Doing things I have wanted to do. Enjoying the kids. <P>Nothing really new in the H dept. No d yet, no filing. I am at the 1 year mark. The Ow's baby is about due. My kids do not know. H sees them a lot....<P>I actually lurk a lot and check up on everyone. I usually only post when it really hits a cord...like Chris's post due to the kids.<P>It is such an awful burden for kids to have to deal with. My heart aches, mostly for them.<BR>Thanks again for asking about me....how bout you???

Hi TT,<P> You sound good, as good as can be....I am always amazed at your strength and grace.<BR>So you are basically in limboland in regards to H , I guess? <BR> <BR> We ,after 2yrs. from Dday and probably about 9mos. since no contact, are FINALLY coming around...it's truly amazing to me. The anger is subsiding in me and my H is starting to joke and be his "old self".<BR> <BR> I've thought of you alot , and how you have managed to make the best of a very bad situation.....I hope you are getting lots of family support.....LU

I was going to ask about you too. I don't have any time to post--I am always sleeping or working, but I do read and I have wondered how you have been. I don't know why I feel a special something towards you--I guess I just admire you for how strong you are and I try to keep your strength in mind while dealing with my own situation. Haven't heard anything from you, so I wondered.<P>I figured that it was about time for the baby to be born--and I wondering if this may be a pivotal event. I hope it goes well for everyone. Boy--you do have an "extended" family now, don't you, so to speak!<P>My prayers are with you.<P>Mary

Lu, I'm glad you are doing well. I hope and pray so much that my H will come out of the fog...if not for the marraiges' sake for his own. It would take me forever to write all of the really inconsistent and almost dangerous things this man has done.<P>I worry so much for him, but I have stopped taking responsibility for him.<P>I read Arik's post to Chris and thought so much of my H. He is soooooooooo unaware of what he is doing.<P>He is nicer to me now...and will talk to me . I am pretty detached...but when I really listen to him talk he says so many things that hammer home how lost he is. It makes it easier to feel compassion for him.<P>Yes, I am in limbo land...but I am still moving forward even if I am not moving on.<P>I guess I've always been a glass half full kind of person...and can survive it. (though it gets alittle too old being a survivor all the time.)<P>I do have a lot of support...most notably from his family..particularly his mom. He has distanced from his family as well. I have a lot of good friends. But mostly, I have found comfort in my growing faith.<P>Mary...I was wondering how you were also. You sound busy, but also like you are moving forward. I feel a kinship with you because I recognize in you the same strength that I have....... It's ok to have been blessed with that strenghth......<P>Yes, the baby will be born very soon. I don't know if it will be the pivotal event everyone wants, because my H is still very troubled...running..... and in some form of denial that keeps him from really accepting that this is happening.<P>Add that to an equally disturbed OW>..who is separated from her H, but still sleeps with him when he is home and goes to church with him every sunday... yet,,,,,seems to accept that my H isn't "connected" to the pregancy or baby. "hello"...what the heck is wrong with our society....<P>Not to say I don't have my own share of "issues"''....<P>Kids are great. I've come to know them and appreciate them in a way that I never have before...kind of like me.... I think I've come to know me and appreciate me more than ever before. <P>I always said my 30's were the best decade of my life because of my H...now I say, my 40's will be the best decade of my life, because of me!!! (of course there is more than that.)<P>I hope all is well with you mary!!! Why didn't you go to Ariznona??? Did you go to Nashville. If you ever get to this part of TN.... let me know.