dear friends<P>Today i got "home" to friends house and found envelope addresed by H. oh boy, I did all my chores, got changed, poured a large drink and only then opened the envelope. Well, this may sound strange but all it contained was a clipping from a newspaper re a competition to win a $10 000 wardrobe!! It made me smile/laugh even!! Nopt so starnge because i really like clothes and h has for many years shopped with me. <P>My innediate response was to call him and say thankyou and how sweet it was etc. That is what I would have done "normally" or in Plan A. But I am in Plan B (48 hours!)- and I soon rejected that idea when I recalled the telephone account and the e-mails re a planned o/seas trip. AnywaY i have "fallen" into that response before - ie keep up the contact, Plan A, make some progress, make some deposits in the Love bank - and then discover OW is stil on the scen - So I held right back.<P>However, I am tempted to send him an e-mail - maybe tomorrow - saying something like:<P>"Thankyou for the competititon info. It made me smile. We could have such fun spending the winnings !.<P>My immediate response was to call you - as it was yesterday when I drove to an avenue of flowering $%^ (note - we are both keen gardeners). But that cannot be under the present circumstances and for as long as Ms X (note- which is how I always refer to her) as in the picture.<P>Believe me H, I have not walked away from you or from our marriage and I sincerely hope you will choose to give us a chance to share again the things we enjoy together. I love and admire you - you are very very special to me; the most special person in the world.<P>Nevertjeless, I felt after we talked on Saturday that the most respectful thing I could do for you - and for me - was to leave you free to think about us and where you wanted to be, without my intervention. I carried that note aound all day Sunday knowing what sadness and confusion it would cause us both to go down this path again.<P>However, on Sunday I also read your telephone account which sadly confirmed for me that you are still very much in contact with Ms X. Throughout all of this I have remained convinced that we care enough about each other to rebuild our lives together but I also know that cannot be until you end all contact with her and we can begin to talk honestly and openly about how we can best recover together. Again. I promise I would do everything I could to nurture us back together - and, I hope one day you will feel the same.<P>Until then, my love, I feel sad but "safer' that we have no contact. <P>R"<P>OK - so would this be madness?? Am I overexplaining/ going too far outside Plan B? I am not doing anything until i hear from you guys.<P>Thankyou<P>R<P><BR>
