<BR>ok, haven't gave an update in a while, wrote h a letter, after we talked about dating, needed to know were i stood. his friend gave it to him and he said tell her if i had anything to say, i needed to call him. ok so i called him yersterday, and asked why he did that, he said that we needed to talk instead of sending notes and i said well if you had return my phone call i wanted to do it face to face. now let me back a bit up, over the weekend he got arrested for not having a liscense and i lb a bit telling him that i was going to move to jersey and to leave me alone and don't call me anymore due to him seeing someone he called just a friend. so he said he didn't call because of that. anyway he said he would call after work. ok didn't really expect him too thought he would blow me off. so i didn't prepared on what i was going to say. but he did at 7 and asked if i has a babysitter. he sounded like ****, cold and tired, and told me to drive over. i didn't get home till 12. but i really didn't get to tell him alot due to his brother coming in and out. it was kinda of hard. then the first ow called 3 times while i was there and he apologize. but he was hanging up on her. anyway we discuss the kids and where i was thinking of moving and alot of small talk that we haven't done in while. i asked him about the dating thing and he said that he wanted to do that, but he still wanted me to go out and do things on my own. he walked me to my car and i told him that i missed him and he said that he missed me too that i was alright when i wasn't *****ing. then i said that i really wanted to work on us and he said that we could do that. ok so what is up. talked to his mother and she said that he said the same to her that he didn't want me to miss out on something cause he hasn't gotten his **** together. we are suppose to get together when he gets back. went up to boston with his brother to get brothers stuff cause they are moving here. i don't know so much i want to say but his brother messed it up. i really didn't expect him to call. mil said he is making sure and doing it slow to make sure that i still wanted him and that there was no one else out there who deserve me more. do you think he is coming around. he would of never done this before, always say that he didn't want to put any false hope out there for me or the kids and that we needed to spend as little time together as possible and that there was too many feelings involve between us. what do you think? we've talked about alot things that night like reconnecting, he told me about things ow did like pretend to comit suicide and how crazy and vandicted she is. now that is completley over with and so is his friend. should i do the dating thing, i want to, start it over again. i think that is what he is trying to do. he was here tonight before he left to go to boston, he was bumping into me and things. d said that he read a card from this guy i knew that was on the counter where he said he wanted to marry me and take care of me and the kids. anyway, should i have my hopes up, i really do cause he would never do this before?
