ok if you read my other posts you know that i am having a bad time. well i guess my children are noticing cause my 4yr old just came in from outside and handing me a bunch of flowers, telling me that this were for me cause i am special and gave me a hug and say these will also bring daddy back. i'm crying now. i read a book on angels and it was saying how angels are around us and when we need help or are going through something that they are more around and that a sign would be flowers given to you from a source. and it also says to listen to your children cause since they are so younge they don't know what fear is and pay attention to what they are saying, cause they can sense things. and it's funny, i know the times me and h got together he always said it and still does. he says daddy is coming back for good this time. just makes you wonder that's all. he gave me a little light, smile for a little while at least.

Dear Heart,<P>Oh, I am touched by your little one's actions. Yes, our children can be our support. Let them. Even my 6 year old has had a few choice words for his dad. In a distant way, they have touched his heart and is now tormenting his soul. H is having to babysit this weekend (4 days) while I go out of town (my company is sending me on a well deserved cruise). They will have some bonding time. <P>Let their support be as the lemonade in your life. Your H has given you lemons but your children have sweetened it to make it palatable for you to swallow. <P>Take Care,<BR>L.<BR>

yes they are my support, cause without them i know i wouldn't be here. it's double hurt when you are dealing with their hurt and also your own. and nothing you say can stop their pain. i don't understand how they can live with themselves. i just don't want my children to think that they can runaway from their problems and walk out. i have my 6yr old when he is in trouble start crying and saying that i don't love him. i'm still trying to deal with helping them. thanks