i am a wife and mother of 4 small boys.i got married at the age of 15 i am now going through a diviorce i caused,but do not want i have had 4 affairs in our 9 year marriage. 2 when i was 17 and 2 within the past two years. i know why i did those things.immaturity. i have done alot of growing up in the last little bit. i have recently moved out of our home with our 4 kids because i thought it would be for the best, ithought i messed up too bad to stay married. i love my h with all my heart and want a last chance even though i know i dont deserve one . since my move my h has a "friend" he says they are just friends but he sleeps at her house a bit. he says he still loves me but his desire to be with me has vanished. i want to get things "patched" up with him before he falls in love with someone else. i love him deeply and he knows this but does not want to talk about it. ive ask him to see our pastor but he wont. i was not a regular church going girl but i have given my heart to jesus in hopes that i will become a better person. i just wonder if there is any hope for our marriage. i have hope

Prayer is the best thing you can do.<P>Have you read about plan A? Do it til you can't any longer. It's not too late until the divorse papers are signed, and then sometimes it's still not too late.<P>Good luck.