I've been putting my answers in different threads! LOL.<P>H and I had a HUGE blowout on monday night. He caught me 'snooping', and I ended up confessing to EVERYTHING I knew to him. We haven't talked since. But I did so amazing throughout our conversation!! I wish i could have had it recorded or something! grin. I stayed calm, and reminded him that although I am very hurt and sad by his actions, that I still love him, and would like our family back together. <P>So, although there had been a blowout (I think it's because he can't believe I was able to find out as much as I did.. although he STILL denied most of it.. what a guy!), we are still on talking terms. We have to be, in order to allow him visitations with the kids etc.<P>Basically, I am now in my own version of plan B. I will not be calling him, period. He is the one responsible for contacting me to arrange visits with our kids. When he does come over for visitations, I will make myself scarce, and aside from talking about the kids (maybe?), I will only remind him that I love him and want our family back together. Nothing more, nothing less. <P>H had been willing to still come and watch the boys for me, but I decided that I wasn't at all comfortable with him even being in my house with me not there. So dad drove me down, I kept the twins with me, and he (my dad) took my 2 yr old out for dinner at Mc Donald's (and just so you know, one hour is TOO LONG to be in a McD's with a 2 yr old! LOL This is something my dad has informed me of).<P>Go figure.. the session went really well. I feel very comfortable talking to her. However, just as I was about to start talking about H's A's, whammo! My hour was up (sigh!). I will be going back to see her next Tuesday morning at 10:30am.<P>She also informed me, that if I feel the need to see her, she doesn't want me to not go just because I may not have the money that week to pay her. I basically now have a 'counselling credit card'!! LOL. I think I'm really going to love this woman! hehehe.<P>Karen<BR>
