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Aeon Blue,<BR> <BR>You know what? I felt exactly the same way when I discovered my H's affair. Incredible pain and such a feeling of hopelessness. I want to assure you time and hard work heals. Honest. It really does. If you want to save your marriage, you CAN do it. <P>Read, read, read ALL sections of this site. Post, ask questions, be willing to listen to advice.<P>Are you in counseling? Is your W aware of the affair? Are you still involved in the affair? <P>There is help here, lots of people struggling but lots of people helping each other through very difficult times. And we will survive. ALL of us!! Join us......

Hi Aeon Blue,<P>Welcome to Marriage Builders. You have joined the ranks of many who are having to deal with putting our lives together because of an affair(s). <P>I would like to point out a positive point I noted in your post. As silly as this sounds, the fact that you are feeling signs of remorse and guilt, is a good thing. Some are in these A's and do not feel anything bad. They think it is ok and these are our H's and W's. <P>So chances of recovery and making you a better person and recover your marriage stand a better chance than some of us right now. With that in mind, I would like you to click and review this post:<P> <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum37/HTML/008792.html" TARGET=_blank>http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum37/HTML/008792.html</A> <P>Please scroll down and you will see a post by NSR, his post contain several links that can assist you. As always, there is always someone here. We are not professionals but have lived through these trying times. Your story will be simular to some and foreign to others. Take the good from them and discard what is not beneficial for you. <P>Take Care,<BR>L.<BR>

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Many... many have been where you are at...<P>First things first...<BR>...please check out the following...<P><A HREF="http://suicidal.com/suicidecrisiscenter/" TARGET=_blank>Suicide Crisis Center... 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)</A><BR><A HREF="http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.suicide.html/" TARGET=_blank>Suicide and Suicide Prevention</A><BR><A HREF="http://www.newlife.com/info.asp#gethelp" TARGET=_blank>1-800-NEW-LIFE</A><P>Please write...<BR>...it will help you get it out!

You can be helped. Open up and let us help you in your need.

You can be helped.Please post again.<P>Love & prayers

Aeon Blue,<P>You can be helped. That's why you're here, because you know that.<P>We care, and we don't know you.<P>There are many, many people who care.<P>Stay with us, Aeon.<P>It will get better.<P>Bright Blessings.<BR>--HBC

Aeon Blue,<P>Are you out there?<P>I care.<P>--HBC

I am breathing, so I guess that means I'm still alive.<P>Aeon Blue<BR>(Everything and Nothing left to give)

I didn't get to read your post before you deleted it. I felt this way also. Please keep posting on here and let us know what all is going on.

A Blue Please come back. This board is full of compassionate people who will help you. It does not matter if you are a BS or WS, you will find loving help here. Keep breathing and come back!!!!!!!!<P>------------------<BR>Marry

HI there-<P>I really shouldn't be here tonight as I am also in the woes of depression-again. But your post-the little I just read-really hit me and I want you to know there are people out there who care.<P>Tell us your story please. It will help for you to talk. No one here knows you so you are safe knowing you can talk forever but we have no one to tell.<P>We are here to help!<P>We want to help!!<P>I once had a brother-my only brother.<P>He killed himself-committeed suicide-over a woman.<P>Don't do it! The pain for those left behind is never ending.<P>Please tell us what you are going through-we can help.<P>Marriage Builders is the BEST place to be when in this situation.<P>Hang on!!<P>------------------<BR>*heartache*<P>"Life's A Dance<BR>You Learn As You Go.<BR>Sometimes You Lead<BR>Sometimes You Follow!<BR>Don't worry 'Bout What You Don't Know<BR>LIfe's A Dance <BR>You Learn As You Go."

Aeon, I was the WS in an affair years ago, and wanted the same thing you've alluded to in your posts as well...but you know what? My husband and I made it and we are stronger today than ever! I saw no end at one time to the pain I caused, but believe it or not, there is a silver lining to that proverbial cloud. I used to post on this board 3 years ago with troubles that started from my affair. It all seems to much to bear at times, doesn't it? <P>Don't ever come to the point of where you feel it's all not worth it, because you will wake up one day soon in wonder and disbelief thinking that you are the luckiest person on the planet and have question marks all over your head from what you've contemplated. <p>[This message has been edited by Madelyn (edited May 12, 2001).]

Aeon Blue,<P>Breathing is a very good start! <P>Hang in there. Let us know how things are going.<P>I do care.<P>e-mail if you need it: hbc@tough.com<P>Blessings.<BR>--HBC

A Blue<P>You have come to the right place. Just keep coming here - you will see (and be amazed) how far some of us have come back from. Make sure that breathing is deep in deep out. I used to have a little mantra that went with it _"breathe in - the good" "Breathe out - the bad". I still do it when the going gets tough.<P>Take care - you are with friends here - at all hours - because of where I live you will find me here when the northern hemisphere is asleep.<P>R

aeon blue,<P>Well... I've been in your shoes too... in fact, I've been on both sides, so I know what it feels like to carry the pain of betrayal and the guilt of having been the betrayer.<P>Believe me, there are many of us here...<P>Breathing is good -- I know on some days I wished I could just stop too <P>Come back and tell us your story, please.<P>We care.<P>------------------<BR>~Sheryl<BR>(a bit worse for the wear, but hanging in there)<P><B>Life <I>is</I> difficult</B>.<BR><I>The Road Less Traveled</I><BR>~M. Scott Peck

Dear friend,<BR>do not even think about such a way of solving problems.<BR>I did last year (I am BS, my H left me after 20+yr for OW)and after I survived I finally understood that I would only hurt my daughters and they deserve to have both parents together or even separated but they need them both.<BR>It IS realy truth that only time would make you feel better, sorry I don't know your story, but if you want make friendships, find understanding and loving people, please write and vent here - and do not ever think about such a possibility.<BR>Big Hug.<BR>Write we are all worried<P>

Aeon Blue -<P>This is the first chance I've had to read your thread. I'm sorry I missed your original posts before you edited/deleted them.<P>I don't know what's going on with you, but trust me, I felt as desperate as you do right now. I tried to kill myself twice (thank God I wasn't very good at it). A lot of people will tell you that suicide is not the answer, and I guess you can add me to that list of people.<P>I don't know what's going on, but I really want to know. I don't know if I can help or not, but I went through some pretty tough times, times when I thought I was just too tired to deal with anything. I couldn't stop myself from replaying old tapes in my mind, I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't stop feeling desperate.<P>I really don't have any answers, heck I couldn't even help myself when I needed it, but I do know probably how you feel, and it really doesn't have to be that way.<P>So, breathing is good (very, very good), but talking can be better. Please tell us what's going on or if I can do anything, please email me skm@hotmail.com.<P>My thoughts and prayers are with you.