He has said so many things. I just hate him. I hate him more each and everyday. If he had once of respect for me he would have kept his mouth shut. How can we have happy live together. how can I save my marriage? How can he think that we can have happy lives together? Yes, My love bank is empty.

I just responded to your other post. I know the feeling of hate you are feeling. It is hard to be the giver all the time with nothing in return. It is hard to cope.

It's good to vent your feelings in a safe environment - like here. One of the ideas behind Plan A/Plan B is that eventually your love bank will go down to nothing - so that if reconcilliation turns out to be impossible, you are ready for that and hopefully won't be so emotionally hurt by it, because you have lost your love for your partner anyway. To get to this stage though, you need to have spent a lot of time on Plan A, and then even more time on Plan B. If this has only been going on a short while, then please believe me that you are just having some bad days and they WILL improve. I was feeling suicidal on Monday, but by Wednesday I was OK again. Just hang in there, keep telling yourself how strong you are and try and do something pleasant to keep your mind off things. Treat yourself, long hot baths with candles, nice music, a nice meal with maybe a glass of wine. You deserve these things, so give love to yourself and treat yourself how you deserve to be treated.<BR>Best wishes, <BR>Paint.