Well my weekend started off good. My anxiety didnt effect me at all. Then Sunday i called my Mother to wish her a happy mother's day, and she asked me how things were going with the separation. And i told her that we were divorcing in a week. She told me GOOD.. "if that girl is going to live in fantasyland...then let her"<BR>After i got off the phone with her, a friend of mine that works out at the gym that my wife does, came over to talk.<BR>He said that a few weeks ago on a saturday afternoon he saw my wife and the OM working out together.<BR>Well that could mean one of many things...he is no long with his wife.. cause she didnt want him working out with my wife.. or<BR>he is hiding the working out from his wife.<BR>My friend said that it didnt look like they were all loving..they were just working out.<BR>So that ruined my sunday night.<BR>You know what really I dont know if I want her back, i just dont want her to be with someone that she started having feelings for while we were married.<BR>Sorry for rambling.<P>------------------<BR>Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want.

I know how you feel - just when you're starting to pick yourself up, something kicks you in the face again. It's brutal and it's not fair. I'm on a 'down' day too today, so am in no fit state to offer advice, other than I know from experience that I WILL feel better again in a few days time, however unlikely that seems at the moment. In the meantime, heres a big hug:<P>((((((((hug)))))))))<P>Paint.

{{{BioMan}}}<P>I know it hurts when our waywards seem happy when we're not. And I have nearly killed my mom on more than one occassion when she thought she was being supportive...<P>Keep in mind who YOU are. Do the things that will make you happy and keep you a full person. As long as you keep your Self well kept, in the end it will not matter what happens with Her or with the two of you...<P>You are important! And you're doing a good job!<P>All the best!<BR>--HBC