I know I'm only 5 weeks into my H being home.<BR>But how much does a person have to go through?<BR>I'm giving everything that I have here.....with hardly any results.....having a very bad day.<BR>My H hasn't had to account for anything that he has done...and has the nerve to get upset when our 10 yr old daughter asks him why he's gone so long to do something that we know only takes a little bit.<BR>We know he isn't with the OW because she is at work and work is a half hour drive from here.<BR>It upsets me to know that I did not cause all of this pain for myself or my children but I'm the one left to fix it.....because he doesn't seem willing to do anything but be here. No counseling...he says we can work it out on out own. He admits he doesn't know how....but won't get help.<BR>I AM willing to do anything....even go to counseling on my own....first session is tonight. It won't cost one cent more for him to be there also.<BR>Here is where I am at.<BR>I feel that I'm not really wanted...only tolerated...and I don't want to be anywhere where I'm not wanted.<BR>Sure....I hear the words....but I'm to the point where I think he tells me what I want to hear....and there are no actions behind them. He agreed to try out this site with me and I printed out the appropriate papers and laid them on the table.....where they still sit....not filled out. There is no effort on his part....other than being here.<BR>I have seriously been considering packing myself and the girls up and staying with a family member for a while if not permanantly if all goes as I expect it to.<BR>He has already told me that if I ask him to go he would because he thinks he deserves it and that if I go it is something he will just have to deal with. He says he has no fight left. I will have to go because I cannot stand being in this house without him being here too....too many memories.<BR>I DO NOT want a divorce.....but cannot bear being somewhere where I feel like I'm not really wanted. I love him with everything that I have in me....but I'm worn out...struggling day to day....and going deeper into depression due to neglect.<BR>

(((((Miss Priss)))))<P>It's so hard, although my WH hasn't come 'home' yet (nor is likely to for a long time!), I do understand how it feels to be the one doing all the 'work'. Everything I say to him is treated as a criticism, or I'm tying him down. He thinks that I'm the one in the 'fog', while he's quite clear about what he wants to do. It's tough, but you have to keep going, have faith in yourself and your own abilities to cope with this situation single-handedly if necessary. You can do it!<BR>hugs, Paint