Just in a really strange place right now and I don't have anybody in the "real world" that I can turn to.<BR>Feeling sad and alone.<BR>No real connections to anybody.<BR>I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself but I sure could use some of those cyber hugs today.

Hugs, Nicole!

Hey Nicole...<P>Sorry things are weird right now. Hang in there...the darkest hours are just before dawn, or so they say.<P>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Nicole}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

{{{{{Nicole}}}}}<P>and throwing you a KISS too!!!!!!!! That was just to get you to smile, just a little one!<P>Love you, Sheryl<P>

BIG HUUUGGGGSSSSS to you Smile!!! you have support here<BR>Maine<P>------------------<BR>IN the words of BOB the BUILDER!!" WE can fix it, yes we can!!!"

Thanks all!!<P>With Arik being in the place he is and our marriage being in the place it is sometimes I just feel like curling up in a little ball and crying until I fall asleep - I'm so tired of trying to be strong.

PL:<P>Prayers and thoughts go with you,<BR>Godspeed,<BR>STL

hugs and prayers going out to you, Nicole!!!

PL,<P>{{{{{{{hugs hugs hugs}}}}}}<P>For once, just this once maybe you should just give into it. Maybe you should just curl up in a little ball and cry until you fall asleep. Sometimes our body and minds tell us exactly what we need. Take care of yourself right now.<P>Z<P>------------------<BR>He loves not who does not show love.<BR>----William Shakespeare

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((Nicky))))))))))))))))))))))))))))<P>you have mail.<P>oh, and by the way...I tried that curling up and crying thing.....<P>don't bother.....messes up your face, hair, and soul....<P>now what you really need to do is get to Quebec.....so I can give you a real hug.....and a real long island iced tea!!<P>getting stronger and growing always hurts, Nicole....especially for those of us that are co-dependant...<P>you just breathe, and remember whose hands you placed all of 'this' in last weekend......<P>go outside.....find a quiet spot....sit down..yes, right there on the ground....and make sure you can see you mountains......see the sky........smell the air......smile at the thought of friends in far-away places that love you and are sending out healing energies to you....then, Nicole......bawl your eyes out........cry like you have never cried before......scream at the world....throw leaves and twigs......freak right out.........CLEANSE.......<P>you never got angry.....you never 'let it out'.....I watched you be patient for 2 years......I say you're past due......<P>I love you.<P><BR>Dylan<P>------------------<BR>"The journey into darkness has been long and cruel, and you have gone deep into it."<BR>~ A Course in Miracles

<B>Nicole</B><P>I've been so worried about you and you hadn't responded to any of my e-mails.<P>I know you are tired of being strong. It's so blasted hard. We are here for you. I am in the exactly same possition as you regarding "real world" friend or support. It does seem to make it harder. All the more reason I PTL for this site and the many wonderful members.<P>I don't know what to say to comfort you. I haven't a clue as to what's happening other than what I read or Arik's posts/threads. He is getting support so now let's work on doing that for you.<P>Please e-mail me...please! Let's chat if you want to. I do sincerely care as all of the other people who have posted to you. <B>We love you Nicole</B> with all of our hearts.<P>Oh yeah I forgot to say something....<B>POTATO</B>! <P><B>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Nicole}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}</B><P>You know I'm praying. My thoughts are with you.<P>------------------<BR><B>God bless you and all of us. We are all going to make it, all of us! With God on our side we can't lose! What God has joined together let no man put asunder. <P>Samantha</B><p>[This message has been edited by A blessed Samantha (edited June 29, 2001).]

Feeling a bit better, thanks guys!<P>Went in the garden and <B>picked</B> (<-- that's for you Dylan heehee) some flowers.<BR>Took the kids to town and went for slushies.<BR>I love to see them smile! <P>Thanks again! <BR>

Hey Nicole,<P>I'm glad to see you here again, but sad to see you HERE again. I hope you know what I mean.....<P>You have been so strong and so patient for two years now. I know you are tired. You need a recharge. I'm still all up for the "girls week out at the beach". I wish we could all do it!<P>I'll be watching for news and praying that it's good.<P>Love, <P>Peppermint