Okay...here is newest situation...for everyone following...<BR>H and I slept together again today...oh geez...I had been depressed for the last 2 days...he noticed the depression..<BR>So kept asking what was wrong...and I kept saying nothing..<BR>I didn't want to say I was thinking of divorce...Plan A can be so tiring and frustrating...the waiting seems eternity..<BR>Anyway...I was supposed to go to counseling but for the 2nd time in a row she wasn't there and they didn't call and inform me??...so I came back early...and he was on the phone with someone!!...<BR>I was already depressed to begin with...and almost lost it...figuring it was her again...he knew what I was thinking and told me who he was talking to...and then yelled that it was the absolute truth...I just didn't say much about it...then he took off to go change his clothes at his parents' house and finish his laundry...<BR>So I did what I've been feeling like for 2 days...I went upstairs and cried and even yelled to myself...<BR>Then waht happens??..he calls me as soon as he's over there to let me know where he is...oh geeez....<BR>I get to the point of just ending it all and he does something like this...explaining why he took off and so forth...he's driving me nuts...<BR>Well I stayed upstairs and he came back....came upstairs and wanted sex...so I said okay...although a bad time for me I did....afterwards he was acting a bit strange...<BR>I tried to get him to finally talk some to me...not best idea....said he was still confused although we were "making love" again...and kept using "we" about future events??...says staying at his parents' house is actually helping him?...I am so confused...he keeps talking like we'll stay together but then stays away?...then he explained he was spending a lot of time with me?...but also said he couldn't stand seeing me depressed anymore...actually feels guilty over what happened?...oh geez....is he coming out of it??...or should I just throw in ye old towel....the roller coaster has been pretty steep on my end now for awhile....is it going up???...

MacG:<P>The mantra: Plan A, Plan A, Plan A ... hmmm, a rhythmic quality to it, isn't there?<P>You are outside the fog: don't get sucked into it. Plan A exists to help dispel it.<P>You are on an emotional rollercoaster, and the fogese spoken by WS can make the ride all the more harrowing.<P>That is what this forum is for. That is what Plan A is for.<P>Godspeed,<BR>STL