I am sorry everyone,I don't think that I can go on anymore,this is just too much to carry.I want to find peace and be with my baby.I don't want to feel this pain anymore.<P>SAA

SAD, Please don't talk that way. I've been there before. I've had a miscarriage and I know that pain you are feeling. Please believe me when I say that tomorrow is a better day. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this all alone. But I know the pain you feel, and I know "THIS TOO SHALL PASS!" <P>Many first pregnancies end in miscarriage. I know that is not a comforting thought, but you do know that you can get pregnant. Many women do not have that luxery. Someday, when the time is right, you will have a beautiful baby. You will look back at this time and know that it was painful, but you will not feel the pain. You will mourn the loss of your baby, but God will put your pain to rest in time.<P>Please do not give up. You have every right to cry those tears, but tomorrow will be a better day. I promise!<P>Heck

S&A,<P>I am not sure why it is taking too long. As of 6:01 pm pst I still have not received your e-mail. So I will post my home phone number here: 408-923-8020 (USA)<P>L.<P>

Oh boy... I'd hoped, when he came last week, that he'd see how well you were doing and come home. He was kind then, and I'd hoped... as you had.<P>Can you call your doctor tomorrow? Can you hang tight until then? See about some anti-deps... with the loss of the baby, and now him, you are UNDERSTANDIBLY sad... very, very sad... and it's NORMAL. <P>I know this sounds stupid... I don't know any other way to say it... but do you have a hotline number you can call, about your death feelings? I am so afraid for you -- I take this very seriously, because my son tried to hang himself... I know how it feels to want to die... I've been there too... there is no shame in reaching out for help!! <P>We're here... <P>((((sad))))<P>

saa:<P>Please hang in there!!! We are here for you!<P>Listen, I have heard so many worse things than that come out of my W's mouth... I have also heard those words directly. I cannot explain the pain of that... I told her that SHE had no idea what that felt like... to have someone whom you love so dearly and have cared for so steadily turn so savagely on you... She was indifferent.<P>But when I started showing her my strength, when I started showing her that I wasn't going to be a source of anger or pain for HER, she found a new respect for me. It's by no means great now, but I can tell you that she is no longer sure she wants a D. We are separating, and we are both agreeing that it doesn't mean anything beyond that.<P>I know she still has feeling for me. But the fog can be so very thick, the WS just cannot possibly see the way back. You have to remind them that you're safe and strong for when it clears. At that point, they may try to come back, and it's up to you what to do next... You will have meanwhile been strengthening yourself even more.<P>This is not the end. It is merely fog talk and rollercoaster. If you remain strong, and true to yourself and Plan A/B, you WILL come out of this successfully.<P>Hang in there!<P>-zen

SAA-<P>There is NOTHING wrong with loving too much! It beats the alternative if you ask me.<P>Please know that all of us here have felt as if it would be easier to end the pain than to go on. But as someone ahead of me stated-tomorrow is a better day.<P>It hurts-and it hurts bad-but just because he said he wants a divorce doesn't mean he even really does want one.<P>You will be OK-just take time to breathe slowly and let it absorb. In a day or two you will have come miles from this point.<P>Hugs from me to you-<P><P>------------------<BR>*heartache*<P>"Life's A Dance<BR>You Learn As You Go.<BR>Sometimes You Lead<BR>Sometimes You Follow!<BR>Don't worry 'Bout What You Don't Know<BR>LIfe's A Dance <BR>You Learn As You Go."

Sad and Alone,<P>Please let us know you are okay. Let us help you. The pain will ease. <P>I am so sorry you are going through this. It is very painful. Let us know what more we can do for you. We are here.

We all care and are here for you. Please let us know how you are doing. I'm thinking of you.

Yes I am suicidal right now.Just had a 30 min long distant conversation with Orchid. I have tried so hard,but now.....<BR>It is so difficult.......<BR>You have all helped so much..........<P>SAA

I am so glad you were able to talk to Orchid. Thank you for checking back in. We are still here for you.

Thats it,I cannot go on any more. I wanted to try so hard.This is it,goodbye my friends,it is too difficult to cont........

Damn it, if this woman does what she says... my GOD, can't we **do** something!!??

Please hang on Sad and Alone. Please let us know you are okay. I know that you can't "know" this right now, because it hurts too much, but suicide is a permanent solution to a tempory situation. <P>WE ARE HERE FOR YOU. WE CARE. Hang in there, please hang in there. I wish there was more I could do!

Hang on sweetie,<P>I know how much you hurt and so does everyone else here. We've all experienced the same pain. <P>Ok, here's my email. Please use it!<P>mitzihartman@webtv.net<P>And if you want my phone # or want to give me yours, feel free!<P>It does get easier. I promise you that. Each day gets a little easier. I was in the same shape you were. I was suicidal in a major way. I wanted to end it and not hurt anymore. It's an overwhelming hurt that seems as if it's killing your soul. Trust me sweetie, it's not. It's going to get better.<P>Do what you need to do to feel better...cry, scream, lay in bed for days, anything but harm yourself. In the end you will have won! <P>Much love to you!<BR>Mitzi

NO WAY!! You hear me! You will not do this to me, not tonight!! Not when I am feeling depressed as well.<P>Sad, you are one of the few people on MB that I feel like I made a difference to, me. It means something and it is very special. For you to take your life would completely nullify that feeling and bring my depression down even more.<P>Don't do it. Go back and read the posts we first gave you again, over and over. You don't even KNOW what's going to happen. All he did was SAY that, yes he was cruel, yes he was mean, but you don't KNOW.

I wish we could do something, Sheryl! I feel so hopeless....I am sure we all do. <P>Sad and Alone....you are not alone. We are here. God is here. Reach out. Please.

Orchid, do a *69 - let us know that she is okay!!

Orchid is the only one who might know where she is, and Orchid herself is in such pain... Orchid, are you still here? God, I feel so hopeless...

We're here... we're here... please, talk to us...<P><p>[This message has been edited by Nyneve (edited July 08, 2001).]

Sadandalone,<P>Look at all of the people here that care about you!!!! You ARE NOT going to die, not this way! You are going to sit there and read all of the loving things that are being written to you! <P>We are here and will be here as long as you need us! Hell! I'm an insomniac and an MB addict! I'm not going anywhere!<P>Talk to us!<BR>Mitzi