Ok, I am happy for a minute, because it has been pouring outside and it smells sooo good. I talked to my H. just a minute ago and he asked me when I was going to change and be everything that he wanted. I told him that I have been trying and I wasn't good enough. He said that I am different and I said that I had went through a stage in my life that I was working on improving. I asked him when he was going to change and he said, "change what". I asked him why it had been ok for OW to call him while we were out of state and in the middle of the night and he said, "because nothing happened". I was just jealous and had no right to be? I stopped the conversation before it got started because I am tired of fighting and refuse to do it. I made me another counseling appointment, for myself. I was a Ws, but the more thought I put into my son and the baby inside of me, the more I know that something has got to change and soon. So I am being happy and smiling even when I don't really want to because it's not just me I'm affecting.

Rainfall,<P>It sounds like you are handling a bad situation rather well. Hang in there. <P><BR>{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}<P>------------------<BR>He loves not who does not show love.<BR>----William Shakespeare