Well, I've finally left the state of the A - moved to a new state to be with family.<BR>Yet, my emotions are crazy. I knew I'd miss the other place - but why when it carried so much pain. A new journey has begun, I know I've done the right thing, I just feel so lonely and lost. THere are so many memories here too. I wish I could move somewhere where I can start again with new people and new scenery. Another state? Another country even. But I know I wouldn't survive at the moment without family support through this pregnancy. I'm due in 6 weeks. I'm so excited. God has given me such a blessing to look forward to. Adjusting to this place again will take some time though. <P>I'm scared though that OW will come up here too after my WS comes up. I thought it was safe to come up here, to get away from her. But its not. How can I get that thought out of my head? I fear this little baby will grow up knowing her and like her better than me. How stupid of me to think these things, but I cant help it.<P>Dancer

Dealing with a WS is bad enough... let alone adding pregnancy hormones to it all! Been there, done that (only 5 months ago).<P>You've got a LOT on your plate right now. Do what you can for you, whatever that is, and keep smiling about the baby. He/she has NOTHING to do with what's happening. Even if the A didn't occur until after you found out you were pregnant, the fact that your husband chose to get involved with another woman was HIS choice.<P>From my experience, once you've settled into a routine with your baby (give it at least one month), your world will become clearer to you. Your hormone levels will resume normalcy, and that will make life easier in general. <P>Although I am not at all familiar with your story (it's so hard to keep up with them all on here! ), I do want to congratulate you in moving to be near family and friends to help you with the baby. That was a very brave step, and as you said, you know it was the right one.<P>Take care, and I wish for you an easy labour, delivery, and post-partum.<P>Karen<BR>

Dancer,<P>Of course you are feeling emotional. So much is going on in your life. Talk about upheaval. Your hormones are topsy-turvey and I am sure you are exhausted. <P>You were correct in going to where you could get the best support for you and your baby. It is very important now. Is this your first? I don't know your story, as Topie says, there are soooooo many here.<P>Don't get crazy thoughts about your baby loving the OW more than you. Excuse me she is a sorry excuse for a human being. You are going to be the one there for your baby. You will be the one up at night, the one feeding, changing, comforting, etc.... That will be a bonding experience no OW will be able to undermine.<P>Right now you need to take care of yourself, and prepare for the upcoming birth. Get lots of rest, because you won't after the baby comes. You have done the right thing. Be proud of yourself.<P>Keep strong<P>R3