First of all....I'm a little P.O'd....because I've been without a vehicle.<BR>Second.....I'm dreading tomorrow.<BR>Tomorrow is our middle daughters first appointment with the eye specialist. It'll be the first time that H and I have went anywhere since he left. I know that I will be fine....but it's the girls I'm wondering about. I hope they don't get the wrong idea. I've tried to explain it to them.<BR>It is starting to upset our 2 youngest ones that daddy is coming around less and less. They want to know why daddy can't come and see them every day?<BR>There really isn't an answer to that....other than it would be so confusing....and when he leaves it's so heartbreaking.<P>I threw him off last night when he left. Our youngest starting in on the whole please stay daddy....and then our middle one did. I calmly said.......daddy will come back to VISIT soon....stressing the word visit. That is essentially what he will be doing with them from now on.<BR>That is the first time I've made an effort to appease them in front of him. He sees me getting stronger...and I think it has him thinking.<BR>They wanted to talk to him again this evening.....and I called and he wasn't there.....another disappointment to the kids. Our oldest is starting to keep count now. <P>Just need a pick me up......something to remind me why I'm doing what I'm doing. I've decided that I'm not throwing in the towel....I've invested too much to do that. Even if it comes to divorce...so be it....but I'm a fighter....not a quitter. I will know when it's time to quit.

Hi Miss Priss,<P>I think you know the answer to your own question,<P>Why are you doing this? <P>The answer lies in the eyes of your 3 children...<P>It also lies in your heart, because you want a strong family with the man that you married.<P>But you already know that, don't you?<P>Keep your chin up, you are the glue that holds your family together right now. What better reason do you need?<P>All the best,

Way to go Miss Priss. You keep fighting!! And keep getting stronger. Yes it will make him think. Were you strong and independent when you met and feel in love? I know I was, and then became weaker and more dependent on H over the years. I think that as you show strength and confidence and "moving on", he will see something in you and like it very much. <P>Why? It is worth it. And your family staying together is worth it. And you get knocked down, but don't have to stay there!<P><BR><P>------------------<BR>Faith1<P>"Then Jesus answered, 'Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.'"<BR>Matt 15:28

This is so hard MP...we want them to 'get' it right now. How can they just walk away, we ask ourselves. Well, they can't and it takes some longer than others to figure it out... <P>Just as you get stronger, so will your girls...they will say or do something and a seed will be planted in your H. He will see you get stronger and, as you said, start to think....<P>It is the hardest thing we will ever have to do...but we have to give them time to get to their place and be right for us when they come back...coming back too soon risks them leaving again...<P>Look at your words to me...go with the flow....<P>Hugs and Prayers,<P>Cali

Why? As posted earlier (can't remember who), because love is. Love is your children. Love is your mate. Love is your love for all your family and the desire to be one again. Love is something you want to last. <P>As much as others external to your immediate family try to break your family, our love tries even harder to keep our family together. It is the force opposite of the A. It is love. <P>MP, you have that type of love. The fact that you are here fighting for your family is proof of that. The Bible says what God has put together let NO man pull apart. Hm.... No man or woman have that right. Those who do are fighting not just against you and your family but also against God. <P>Something for those WS and OPs to think about, don't you think?<P>L.

Well, if you being a little stronger and independant has him thinking, really give him something to think about. Alot of men are that way, if you don't need them so much they start wanting you. But do it without LBing--tricky. While at the apt tomorrow, handle the doc and apt stuff by yourself, you don't need him for that. What else could you do? Got any handy man type stuff that needs done around the house? Can you do it yourself or have a friend help? That would help your self esteem and show you don't 'need' him. <P>I'm sorry to say I don't know your whole story. I'm not necessarily saying to show you don't 'want' him, just that you don't 'need' him.<P>I hope I'm not way off base here, if so, please accept my apologies.

MP...<P>You are doing it because its the right thing to do. You are doing it because when all is said and done, those three young ladies need you. They will look at you someday and see the strong, loving, caring mother/wife/woman that you are and realize the lessons you taught them. You are doing it because there is no other answer short of giving up and giving in. You are doing because of who you are...and we are damn proud of you!!<P>*Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.*<P>Trueheart