Hi.<P>For some reason I am feeling very frustrated right now, I feel like crying, probably b/c I have so much to DO - and<P>I will be gone for 2 weeks. I suppose I will be able to find a library to check in on you all.<P>But . . . I don't want to leave my H, girls, home, or MB.<P>I know I will probably find somewhere I can use a computer. Anyway, I leave Sat morning, and I'll be back home Aug 18. hugs, aftershock

Hi aftershock,<P>Must be something bad in the air. You are not the only one who feels like crying. But go ahead and cry, it may help to relieve some pent up stress. <P>I am not familiar with your trip? Is it a business or pleasure trip? If it helps to talk about it go ahead. If not, I will still be here to help and support. <P>Thinking about U!!! <P>L.<BR>

Orchid,<BR>Thanks so MUCH!!!!!! It's only business (there may be some fun, but I won't plan anything - if it happens - I look back on my trip with fondness).<P>I wish the tears would just flow. Guess it's b/c of that almost full moon last night - it was wonderful. I guess all the pressure of the current "attitudes", and pressure of the last 18 mos with H. I won't be around to talk to him (if I need to), and watch my girls. You can read my post to BIN and Winnytoo, which I summed up what has been happening. I have two daughters, one with ADD and the other with ADHD (and possible learning disability). And the "conflict" in my home. It passed from my mom & g/mom to me (who knows where it came from before that). They are great ladies, but alot of conflict and control; and I guess I see it in my girls. Things I wish I didn't get passed on to pass on. In my mothers house, one just doesn't get to "relax", there's always control, and you would never be able to tell her about it - because she would pout forever. Roll your eyes. God, I love her, she's done alot for me, but it caused me alot of pain too. That's the "control" issue my H talks about.<P>I guess that's the "me" I have to work on. Anyway, I'll try to go cry. I need to put on a good country western "Cry, Cry, Cry".<P>Thanks for thinking 'bout me. hugs, aftershock