I know tomorrow may be quite different so I'll savor today. H called and said he was coming over to pick up the kids today since he didn't take them last night. Last night we argued of course it's always over petty things which seems to lead to everything else. Major LB's on both our parts. Anyway he came over to get the kids and they wanted me to come along I told them that I didn't know if that would be a good idea and H said why don't you come with us. Kids wanted to go to the mall so we did. We went to lunch and just goofed around H was in an unusual good mood. We actually had fun today no LB's from either of us. We came home and I made coffee and we talked for awhile. I had to pick up S and the kids stayed at neighbors playing H said stop by if you want I did we ended up being intimate again! I want to say no but it's so hard. We really had a good day. He even ask if we wanted to go out for dinner so he came back and we all went out for dinner and had a great time. He just left a little while ago told me he had a good time too and he would talk to me tomorrow. We talked about OW who he still says is just a friend (co-worker)he continues to tell me that she is happily married and they are just pals. I want to believe him with all my heart because i truly love him. He says I need to "get over it" that if he where sleeping with anyone else he wouldn't be sleeping with me and disrespecting me that way. He still tells me that he loves me and cares about me but we can't get along. Today he told me that he misses being home especially with the kids but we just can't seem to get along. He has always been and still is a good provider he still pays the bills and gives me extra money if I ask. Today when we were shopping he ask me if I wanted anything and I said no he said are you sure and I said yes. My b-day is coming up so we'll see what happens. I'm really trying not to read into anything because I know that as quickly as the fog rolls out it can roll back in. I'm just happy that today was a good day! Sorry this is so long I feel like a school girl I'm so excited! Oh yeah before I left his place I gave him a letter that I wrote the other night and it just said that since we can't talk about us maybe he should try to write me about his feelings and that no matter what happens with us he will always have a special place in my heart. I don't know if he read it yet because he didn't mention it. I can only continue to pray and hope for the best!<BR>cybil <BR>

Good for you Cybil,<BR>I am so glad that you had a great time w/ hubby and kids. I would give anything for that. I am glad for you tho.

Good for you, keep hanging in there and dont get too discouraged with the next step backwards, because the next stride forward will not be far behind.<P>havachance