Wow. What happened last night? I mean I know what happened but it's so messed up. I'm really worried about my H and his anger. I'm not afarid of him because I know he would never just come here and beat me or shoot me or anything lke that. I provoked him. I should have never told him to come into the house I ask him in and then started with him. I know I can't be responsible for his actions. How did we get here. Tomorrow is my b-day what a birthday present eh?!<BR>I want my H to get help. He has always had an anger problem. Know what I still truly love him now I know that my M is over. I just talked to one of my friends and she ask me why did I think he was so mad, was it because now he knows that I know or is it because he really loves OW and can't have her. See she is married to and her H is suspicious but he doesn't know for sure that there is an A. I have to get over this A crap. I do still love him and miss him so much. What can I do? I have to decide if I am indeed going to go through with the PFA as I will have to go to court tomorrow. I'm going to call my counselor in a bit and tell him what has happened. Major confusion here!!<BR>cybil

Cybil,<P>I'm really sorry about last night, what you went through was terrible. I don't really have any advice, but I will be praying for the two of you. I guess you just have to look deep inside and see what is really worth fighting for and what is not. I don't think any of us can answer for you the direction you need to go. We are with you though.<BR>knight?

Hi Knight. Thanks for your concern. I awoke today and thought what happened here. I have alot of decisions to make. I called my counselor and he hasn't called back yet. I'm worried about my H to. I'm worried about the state that he's in. I'm thinking abut calling my FIL to call H and make sure he's okay. Inlaws don't want to get involved but this is there son and I think that they need to be aware of his anger problem. I'm scared for him.<BR>cybil

Just got off the phone with my counselor he suggests that I go tomorrow and tell them that things got out of hand and I am willing to drop the PFA if he agrees to a counseling component. He said this may be your silver lining. Guess I'll have my answer then if he agrees to go then he can see the kids and come around if not then he has to stay away from us completely. I'l find out tomorrow.<BR>cybil

cybil,<BR>Hi! Good to hear from you this morning. Hope you rested well. I'm sure things look a little different today. I'm glad you talked to your counselor. SOunds like good advice.<P> Keep us posted. Take care of you.