Hi everyone I'm feeling sooo much better today. Sometimes I just don't understand myself. Wondering if I could be bi-polar or something. Spoke to H twice today by phone something was wrong with the toilet and he told me which part to pick up at the hardware store and then he came over after work to fix it and I just kept vacuuming. Then I said something to my D about going with my girlfriend tonight to get my nails done and H ask how long I would be gone. I replied I'm not sure and he said I'm sorry I have no right to ask and I said that's right. He was actually very nice but I'm not going to let myself go back there and go through that emotional hell again. Counselor says that I should make plans especially on the weekends since that's when he seems to be here more but let the door open. If he calls and says he's coming over tell him we won't be here but if you'd like to come by at such an such time. I need to not be here so much when he's here with the kids. I feel so strong today. Just wish I could keep the balance. Thanks everyone for all your encouraging words yesterday it means so much to have such wonderful people caring about you. Good night and sweet dreams. You're all in my prayers.<BR>C

Cybil, keep taking one day at a time. Hopefully, soon the good days will begin to outnumber the bad days.