I can't forgive myself for cheating on my husband. I think that I am more hurt than he is. I cry more than he does about it. Part of me says to stay and work it out because I married him "for better or worse", I know God despises divorce, and I feel like I owe him that since he's never done a thing in our 6 year marriage to hurt me this much. But then part of me says to go because "God will forgive", and we will heal, but most of all, I want to go because I know in my heart that I don't truly love him like a wife should love a husband.<BR>I am hurt and don't know what to do.

Hello and Welcome to Marriage Builders!<P>Before I share our welcome letter with you, please know that the boards have had some technical trouble lately. I bet you couldn't get back in today to read responses!! It wasn't just you -- we've had some problems for about two months now.<P>You are VERY WELCOME HERE though, and I would like to share some information with you. Please read on:<P>First, I would like to share two links with you. Just click on the underlined links here, and read –><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi10_tour.html" TARGET=_blank>Tour of Marriage Builders</A> and <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum29/HTML/000553.html" TARGET=_blank>General Welcome</A>. <P>Please read everything you can on this site, post and read often!! <P>I have been betrayed and betrayer, so I have the dubious honor of knowing what infidelity does from BOTH SIDES of the situation. <P>I believe in the concepts espoused here, if applied properly. One idea that has worked *wonders* for some couples is Plan A. Read about it here –><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi8113_ab.html" TARGET=_blank>What Are Plan A and Plan B</A>.<P>Use what you learn here to make your marriage a safe place where you do your best to meet the <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi3300_needs.html" TARGET=_blank>Emotional Needs</A> of your spouse,and avoid <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi3400_lovebust.html" TARGET=_blank>Love Busters</A> whenever possible. . When a decision must be made, use the <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi3500_policy.html" TARGET=_blank>POJA</A> to determine the final outcome that you can both agree upon.<P>Many couples find that counseling is VERY helpful, and the counseling provided here is excellent for several reasons; but the most important is that it goes along with the concepts here. Check it out here –> <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi7000_counsel.html" TARGET=_blank>Counsel Link</A><P>Again, welcome to our community, and feel free to write often and ask lots of questions!<P><BR><P>------------------<BR>~Sheryl<P>And we know. We who have seen. ~Pellegrino

The best thing you can do is to stay married to your husband. Two wrongs don't make a right. If your husband wants you then you should honor your marriage comittement. In time you can make it up to your husband.