We've been separate for three weeks today. For the most part I've done well. The first few weeks he called quite a bit and we saw each other quite a bit. I haven't heard from him since Monday. I let him do the calling since he's the one who doesn't know how he feels, etc, etc. <P>My son called this morning and was complaining about his computer at school. I jumped his case and hung up on him. Called him back to apologize and just started crying. <P>I deserve better than what I've had over the last couple of years. Why am I so down?????? Is this normal?????????<P>We are going to beach next week together if Hurricane Floyd doesn't cause a problem. I guess I just want to feel loved by SOMEBODY. It just seems like all the kids do is think about themselves and what they want or need. DOESN'T ANYBODY CARE WHAT I NEED HERE????????????? ALL I'VE DONE FOR 25 YEARS IS TAKE CARE OF EVERYBODY ELSE. <P>Thanks for listening. Just needed to vent so I won't take it out on H.

hi janie, no time right now to write much, but sending hugs!! <BR>I think there are many here that know how you feel...when is it your turn to be cared FOR? How did we ever get ourselves to this place in life?

Golly Janie, I'm sorry today is bad for you.<P>Can you try to find an activity that will occupy some of your thinking time? Maybe you feel empty nested as well - maybe you NEED to take care of someone? How about adopting a shut-in?<P>Or take a painting class? Finding a hobby?<P>I think if you find a new interest that doesn't include thinking about H or what everyone else feels like, it might help.

Went out at lunch and feel a little bit better. I guess all this is just now hitting me. Second guessing myself. Maybe I should have stayed and tried harder for a while longer, etc, etc. You know how that goes. Everytime I go out I'm afraid I'll see him with her. Although he claims there isn't a "her" right now I don't really believe him.